She is the same lady who allowed all the 1984 culprits to be in the party and even gave them ticket yet people here are wishing for her good health
By your comments, the only person you are hurting is YOU.
Let me bore you with a story kdsji, it happened 3 years ago, finally after much searching, I finally found a mint condition range rover 1994 4.2 v8 lse, located in the north of england. We agreed a price of £2000. The owner was a mechanic, and made it clear the car was mechanically perfect. This was extremely important, as I just had enough to scrape together the money, and there would be none for any repairs. I got on the train, and spent the entire journey in a state of excitement, finally, I saw the car, and she was beautiful, I bear hugged the seller, paid the money, and drove her the 360 miles back home, within the next 40 miles, I noticed the brakes were not great, and the engine, for a 4.2 was not brilliant, the steering was a bit funny too,anyway, next morning, I took it to a local garage, who confirmed that the brakes, and discs were practically falling off, I rang the seller, and politely explained the situation, who then said I was insulting him, and his car, and put the phone down.
How angry was I?, well not furious, but I could feel the anger in my stomach, I wanted to go up and rip his head off, and I knew that everytime something went wrong, I would have that feeling, anger also leaves me drained, I cannot eat, I cannot sleep, it takes me over, which is why I have to try and defuse it before it takes me over, so I texted the man, 'Its a great car, you won't hear from me again', and I did it quickly, before I could think about it, now, I did not want to do this, I am no saint, but in the interest of self preservation, I did it, my feelings for the seller were the same as before, but I was adamant I was not going to let this slime make me angry, so I forgave him, not for him, but for ME.
Subsequently the car ended up needing a head gasket, replacement air suspension, even the brake lines were rotten, and this slime let me drive it 360 miles home, but, as I had texted him, I could not really go back , so I just got on with it, even though it cost me and my wife money we really could not afford, it was sold after my wife noticed I had spent money that could have been spent on dental treatment (for myself) on a replacement cat converter, at which point, it was sold to a chap for norway who broke it for spares.
Kdsji, why let this anger ruin your life, forgetting for a minute the concept of forgiveness, I do not believe anything is worth getting angry about, it changes your personality, it makes you act irrationally and you lose the most important thing that Guruji has given us, chardi kala , and anyway, it is not ours to judge, as Bhagatsinghji would be fond of saying. Only the creator knows the truth, and as we are not the creator, all we can do is make sure our own feelings and mental state are in consonance, not in rage.
