Hii Hannahh!
Haha, i dont think its stupid that you found Sikhism in that way. Afterall God leads us to him in many different ways, and who knows a movie can be one
. Thats good you find it nice. I believe its always always good to find something that is spiritually solid, no matter what religion it may be. All religions lead to the same God, like all rivers lead to the same ocean. But some rivers curve alot, some are straight, some have more obstacles then others and requirements, but eventually they meet the great infinite ocean. And in my opinion, I find sikhism quite straightforward, and with the least number of obstacles.
Honestly, when I was a child, I was afraid of Sikhs
. I was terrified of turbans and big beards. (But then again I was also afraid of bald people, hence Gandhi was
for me). But eventually i outgrew that childrish fear. My first real encounter with the faith was at my cousins wedding. He married a Sikh, and after the wedding ceremony, they did some Shabad Gurbani and Kirtan, and when I listened to it, it filled my heart with joy, happiness, and bliss. and thats when I looked into it seriously. Since I grew up as Hindu, I saw God always in the form of Rama, the hero of the Ramayana. So no matter what spiritual path I follow, even if it doesnt worship the Rama of the Ramayan, I still certainly call that God by the name Rama. Once I was in doubt about God, and I got rather confused about his relation to other Gods and all that. But that sunday I had gone to the Gurudwara, and I guess they had issued a Random Hukumnama for that day, and it came from Shalok, Mahalla 9. And quoted the 9th master: "Sub Sukh Data Ram Hai, Dusar Nahi Na Koi". "There is One Blissful Lord, And no Other" And I felt as if my prayer and my doubts were directly cleared by God via Guruji. And since then my faith in Guruji has been great. I may not see my God Rama as the Hero of the Ramayan anymore, but he is still Rama as the cosmic creator, time less Lord. Afterall, Goswami Tulasidas writes in his own Ramayan, that above the formed and the formless Rama, there is the name of Rama which is supreme. Just thought I would share my experiencee of how I started to follow Guruji's words.
Regarding where to find a copy of the Guru Granth Sahib Ji. I found a copy of the Adi Granth (pretty much same as the Guru Granth Sahib, excepting the title) from Amazon.com, but it was about 70 some dollars. I found my copy of the Dasam granth from Amazon as well. but since your a student you might not have the money for that Id suggest reading it online:
Holy Guru Granth Sahib .
You can find the whole thing there online. And im positive there are probably other sites out there which have it as well. And if staying on the internet to read it is an issue, at the most you can print it out and read it, just keep it clean and nicely, maybe even bind it, because it should be respected just as any scripture, and especially for sikhs as the Granth Sahib (aka Adi Granth) are the words of the living Guru and embodiment of the 10 Gurus. Hopefully this will be helpful. I myself cannot read or write Punjabi, but I i can atleast understand msot of it. I suppose as you become more fimilar with the religion and while listening to the Gurbani etc you'll catch on too. Its helpful. although even when not understanding it, the way the gurbani is sung, it immediatly pierces your heart.
Hope this all helps,
Suren
