I don't know where this goes but I feel as though I need to vent and get some stuff off my chest. All my life, well, most of it I've been dealing with depression and other issues... I'm 21 years old and I feel as though my mental issues are stopping me from being the person that I want. My parents separated when I was young, I was sexually abused when I was 8 by a family member... I had a bad childhood because I never got along with my mother and sibling, I spent most of my teenage years alone, isolated and in my bedroom, I was never allowed to have friends or mix with family. Things got worse when I turned 16 as within a few years my cousin, aunt, nani and dad all died. Death is something I cannot deal with it... I'm trying to move on with my life but at any tiny trigger I find it so easy to slip into my old routine of never leaving the house and comfort eating. I've tried counselling and that didn't help me... the next step would be taking anti-depressants, but that's something I don't want to do. I just want to be happy, be content with myself and my life... I have ambition and motivation but my depression overrides this. I guess the reason I've made this thread is just for some inspiration, advice, ways to deal with this... I won't be able to move on unless I let go of the past... I just don't want to spend the rest of my life mourning about the crap beginning I've had... I don't know.