I tend to notice that us Punjabi's or Punjabi Sikhs tend to get obsessed with color like being obsessed with whiteness. It tends to contradict what our Guru Granth says that everyone is equal regardless with skin color, caste, etc, but I realized its prominent. I had some people telling me if I was a Guju (Gujurati),which hurts me since I am a Punjabi Sikh then I remember one time back in grade 9 I got called a chamar even though I am a Jatt Sikh, but I don't believe in caste, but due to this I feel I am obsessed with my skin color putting skin creams and all that. Most of this comes from Punjabi People who are also Sikhs. Most people think of Punjabi people of being aryans, with fair skin, but there are few Sikhs who are dark. I mean I am brown, but it really hurts me a lot, and sometimes I have feelings that I shouldn't be a Sikh due to my skin color, what do I do? I mean I have feelings that I am a curse or burden due to my skin color, and I realise that all photos I saw of the Mughals in those Sikh Portraits are black. Which gives me more anxiety since I think they think of darker skinned people of being evil. This results in me wanting to get married with a gora, or a person with light skinned so I can get rid of this curse. What do I do?