I really confused with two thing in my life 1) Should I go for MS in USA or Stay in India and prepare for IAS. The reason that restrict me going abroad, is my family(mom and my younger sister, my father expired in army) even though they encourage me to follow my dream. I some how feel I should stay along them. But right know my carrier is not that great, even though i have done my engineering for a reputed university (PEC), I am working in a small software company that i didn't like much. Secondly, I think am just focusing on wordy material by doing that. It is the peer pressure that is making go for a better future. But some how i feel, that i can contribute to my family by first becoming settle in my life. Only then i can take care of them. OR it is just a excuse for my fear to venture into un-know country. 2) I am confused b/w love and lust. Incident a) I told a girl that i was don't love, but it was the lust that attracted me toward her. So I have stop my self from any physical relationship after I said that, before that I just kissed her. I am confused is that, make me sinful Incident b) There is another girl which i loved her form my bottom form my heart. It has been 2 year, i have purposed her many times, but she never given me a straight answer. Because of that I ignored her. But she wrote on facebook that she missed me and will not be able to meet me as i was on the tour to Norway, she misunderstood that i have gone abroad for immigration. But at that moment i replied furiously. i regret that moment. I don't know whether she loved me or not. But i always remain in her thoughts.