Hello What I am about to say will hurt many so I apologise in advance. You may curse me and insult as you wish, but please give me advice of how to move forwards. I will try to explain in a nutshell to get to the point and will answer any questions that arise. Many years ago, I gained bad habits i.e drugs, smoking & drinking. Drug and Smoking stopped but drinking became a severe habit whereas I had to go into rehab. For the last 5 years I had not drank alcohol but in the last 4 months I've fallen back into that habit. My fiance knows of my past but had accepted me as I had changed my ways. I considered myself lucky that I was marrying such a man (whose both parents are Amritdhari and one day wants the same and for his future wife and family) who accepts my faults. However, he too realised I was drinking again and tried to support me. In the end I tried to control it but he still caught me out and gave me an ultimatum that he will refuse to marry me if this behaviour continues. This weekend I lied again. But my lie constitutes me going to the Gurdwara and lying in front of Guru Granth Sahib Ji. I had a couple of glasses of wine @ lunchtime and my fiance smelt alcohol off me when he met me later that evening. I professed my innocence and he said to go Gurdwara and admit that I have not had a drink and that it is his imagination. I went. I lied.