WE don't have neither right nor wisdom to judge anyone; leave alone you. May Waheguru bless you with outer-Rehat of a 'Khalsa' while strengthening your inner-rehat day by day. Just remember, the outer appearance of a person is reflection of his inner-self. When all other emotions - anger, happiness, sadness, disappointment etc. show on our face and dictate our behaviour (we choose bright & nice dress up when happy and do not care to dress up when sad) ; similary inner-rehat is reflected in our rehini and pehrava. Bana and Bani are not exclusive of each other. Having knowledge is different than putting that knowledge into action. We sing almost daily "Tum maat Pita, Hum baarak Tere" but ask anyone if they have accepted Guru as Maat-Pita. NO, we still use our Mann-Matt and think that 'I' am doing all to run my life. It is His 'khed'; He has created this 'ego' in us and only HE can remove it. The only part that we can play (as I understand it) that we do 'Ardaas' and ask for 'Uddam'. May Waheguru bless you with 'Uddam' to take that first step and start following orders of Sri Guru Gobind Singh Ji for Sikhs. Saabat-soorat was His order...no person claiming to be beleiving in Sikh Gurus can deny that.