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I Learned Punjabi For My Wife


1947-2014 (Archived)
Jun 17, 2004
I learned Punjabi for my wife
I learned Punjabi for my wife - The Globe and Mail

The clock on the stove blinked 7:08 a.m. I stumbled into the kitchen in a daze.

I picked up the receiver on the third ring and said hello. The caller was quiet and tentative, a slight tremor in her voice. She answered with a single word: my wife’s name, spoken with a distinct accent, the “r” pronounced with a hard roll off the palate.

I was immediately awake. “Ih kaun heh?” I asked calmly, confidently, taking care to deliver each syllable with the correct inflection. “Who is this?”

A pause. A stutter. Then a tear-flooded babble I could not comprehend. No matter; I had been waiting for this call for years. I turned to my wife and handed over the phone. It was her mother, asking for the daughter she had disowned more than a decade ago.

Did it startle her to hear her son-in-law speak Punjabi? She would not be the first. You can hear any language on the streets of Vancouver, and Punjabi more than most. But in the 18 years I have been twisting my tongue to speak the language, I have yet to meet another ghorra – “white” male – whose knowledge extends much beyond the word samosa.

In the beginning, learning Punjabi was a labour of love: audible proof of my devotion to this amazing, beautiful woman for whom I had fallen head over heels. The more I learned of her birth tongue, the more connected to her I would be. Her language would became our language, a bond that would draw us closer and make us unique.

As our relationship evolved, language served a more practical function. While our country prides itself on its cultural mosaic, not every family wishes their daughter to be part of it. Here, language would be my talisman. While Mommy-ji and Daddy-ji might frown upon the colour of my skin, they would surely be soothed by my mastery of their language. It would all be so easy: a respectful salutation, an earnest discussion, a clever turn of phrase, and soon the wall between “us” and “them” would come down.

What folly. The day my wife left the family home to move in with me was the day her family imploded. Forsaken by her mother, denounced by her father, shunned by aunts and uncles, her pleas for reconciliation fell upon deaf ears. Calls were unanswered; letters returned. Excommunication was total. While my wife slid into despair, I stood silenced, denied the opportunity to make my case or give voice to my outrage – in whatever language.

And so it was that language itself became a war. Driven by pride and frustration, I doubled and redoubled my efforts to learn Punjabi. My logic was simple: I would attack intolerance with its own words. Every muddled dialogue, every rambling conversation would be a linguistic act of defiance, a method of striking back at the ugly prejudice that forbade an Indo-Canadian woman to marry outside her caste, her culture, her colour.

I attacked my endeavour with zeal, if not constancy. I attended language courses. I bought grammar books and primers. I made flashcards. I watched films and listened to music, trying to pluck out words I recognized. I conjugated verbs, declined pronouns, fretted over gender. I memorized the letterforms of the Gurmukhi script and read all manner of signs, posters and bills.

From the start, shock and awe was my strategy. I ambushed unsuspecting shopkeepers and security guards, taxi drivers and telemarketers, proprietors and patrons of restaurants, delivering volleys of words and phrases in their own language. Some were indifferent to my elocution, most astonished by it. When inevitably the conversation turned to where I had learned Punjabi, I replied with self-righteousness: “Meree bhoti apnee heh.” Literally, my wife is “one of us,” colloquially, my wife is Punjabi Sikh. I hoped the bitter irony of my suggestion – that I too was one of “us” – would not be

I look back and my face flushes at the vanity, the smug egoism that lay behind this war of words. Still, good has come from the struggle. While fluency remains a distant goal, the language has indeed become a bond between my wife and myself, one we extend to our children every time we tell them in Punjabi to wash their hands, be careful or stay out of trouble. On a personal level, speaking the language has helped purge me of rage and heal the scars of banishment. It has assuaged my guilt over ripping a family apart. It has prepared me for what must come next.

My mother-in-law visited the weekend after her call last year. As she stood at our door, hugging the laughing grandchildren she had never before seen, I rehe{censored}d the words in my head one last time. And then, finally, it was my time to speak: “Sat sri akal ji,” I said, bowing slightly and drawing my palms together. Hello. “Mera nam James heh.” My name is James. “Tuaddee kee hal heh ji?” How are you?

It was perfect: grammar, accent, elisions, tone. Which only made sense. I had seen it, heard it, imagined it all before, dozens, perhaps hundreds of times.

Sat sri akal ji,” she replied meekly, her eyes wet with tears. “Maihn teek heh.” I am fine. Which, I have come to understand, is a fair translation of the word “peace.”

James Dolan lives in Vancouver.


Tejwant Singh

Jun 30, 2004
Henderson, NV.
James:They say that the language of love needs no syllables, no nouns, no verbs, no words.

You have proved them all wrong.

Initially, it could have been for you to have the raging tug of war against those in their own language who acted in an apartheidical manner towards you and your beloved wife.

However,subliminally and quite unknowingly, you were sowing the seeds of love, dedication, devotion and commitment in the relationship with your darling wife.The silence that was to be changed into the language of love that you struggled with and worked so hard to learn.

Kudos to you, to your wife and to your mother in law who for so long could not find forgiveness for herself much less for her daughter. Thanks to her son in law and her daughter, the tangled web has been untangled and its yarn has created a real bond of love, irrespective of any hue,creed or faith.

Sat Siri Akaal ji.

Tejwant Singh

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