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Composition, Arrangement & Layout
ਜਪੁ | Jup
ਸੋ ਦਰੁ | So Dar
ਸੋਹਿਲਾ | Sohilaa
ਰਾਗੁ ਸਿਰੀਰਾਗੁ | Raag Siree-Raag
Gurbani (14-53)
Ashtpadiyan (53-71)
Gurbani (71-74)
Pahre (74-78)
Chhant (78-81)
Vanjara (81-82)
Vaar Siri Raag (83-91)
Bhagat Bani (91-93)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਾਝ | Raag Maajh
Gurbani (94-109)
Ashtpadi (109)
Ashtpadiyan (110-129)
Ashtpadi (129-130)
Ashtpadiyan (130-133)
Bara Maha (133-136)
Din Raen (136-137)
Vaar Maajh Ki (137-150)
ਰਾਗੁ ਗਉੜੀ | Raag Gauree
Gurbani (151-185)
Quartets/Couplets (185-220)
Ashtpadiyan (220-234)
Karhalei (234-235)
Ashtpadiyan (235-242)
Chhant (242-249)
Baavan Akhari (250-262)
Sukhmani (262-296)
Thittee (296-300)
Gauree kii Vaar (300-323)
Gurbani (323-330)
Ashtpadiyan (330-340)
Baavan Akhari (340-343)
Thintteen (343-344)
Vaar Kabir (344-345)
Bhagat Bani (345-346)
ਰਾਗੁ ਆਸਾ | Raag Aasaa
Gurbani (347-348)
Chaupaday (348-364)
Panchpadde (364-365)
Kaafee (365-409)
Aasaavaree (409-411)
Ashtpadiyan (411-432)
Patee (432-435)
Chhant (435-462)
Vaar Aasaa (462-475)
Bhagat Bani (475-488)
ਰਾਗੁ ਗੂਜਰੀ | Raag Goojaree
Gurbani (489-503)
Ashtpadiyan (503-508)
Vaar Gujari (508-517)
Vaar Gujari (517-526)
ਰਾਗੁ ਦੇਵਗੰਧਾਰੀ | Raag Dayv-Gandhaaree
Gurbani (527-536)
ਰਾਗੁ ਬਿਹਾਗੜਾ | Raag Bihaagraa
Gurbani (537-556)
Chhant (538-548)
Vaar Bihaagraa (548-556)
ਰਾਗੁ ਵਡਹੰਸ | Raag Wadhans
Gurbani (557-564)
Ashtpadiyan (564-565)
Chhant (565-575)
Ghoriaan (575-578)
Alaahaniiaa (578-582)
Vaar Wadhans (582-594)
ਰਾਗੁ ਸੋਰਠਿ | Raag Sorath
Gurbani (595-634)
Asatpadhiya (634-642)
Vaar Sorath (642-659)
ਰਾਗੁ ਧਨਾਸਰੀ | Raag Dhanasaree
Gurbani (660-685)
Astpadhiya (685-687)
Chhant (687-691)
Bhagat Bani (691-695)
ਰਾਗੁ ਜੈਤਸਰੀ | Raag Jaitsree
Gurbani (696-703)
Chhant (703-705)
Vaar Jaitsaree (705-710)
Bhagat Bani (710)
ਰਾਗੁ ਟੋਡੀ | Raag Todee
ਰਾਗੁ ਬੈਰਾੜੀ | Raag Bairaaree
ਰਾਗੁ ਤਿਲੰਗ | Raag Tilang
Gurbani (721-727)
Bhagat Bani (727)
ਰਾਗੁ ਸੂਹੀ | Raag Suhi
Gurbani (728-750)
Ashtpadiyan (750-761)
Kaafee (761-762)
Suchajee (762)
Gunvantee (763)
Chhant (763-785)
Vaar Soohee (785-792)
Bhagat Bani (792-794)
ਰਾਗੁ ਬਿਲਾਵਲੁ | Raag Bilaaval
Gurbani (795-831)
Ashtpadiyan (831-838)
Thitteen (838-840)
Vaar Sat (841-843)
Chhant (843-848)
Vaar Bilaaval (849-855)
Bhagat Bani (855-858)
ਰਾਗੁ ਗੋਂਡ | Raag Gond
Gurbani (859-869)
Ashtpadiyan (869)
Bhagat Bani (870-875)
ਰਾਗੁ ਰਾਮਕਲੀ | Raag Ramkalee
Ashtpadiyan (902-916)
Gurbani (876-902)
Anand (917-922)
Sadd (923-924)
Chhant (924-929)
Dakhnee (929-938)
Sidh Gosat (938-946)
Vaar Ramkalee (947-968)
ਰਾਗੁ ਨਟ ਨਾਰਾਇਨ | Raag Nat Narayan
Gurbani (975-980)
Ashtpadiyan (980-983)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਾਲੀ ਗਉੜਾ | Raag Maalee Gauraa
Gurbani (984-988)
Bhagat Bani (988)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਾਰੂ | Raag Maaroo
Gurbani (889-1008)
Ashtpadiyan (1008-1014)
Kaafee (1014-1016)
Ashtpadiyan (1016-1019)
Anjulian (1019-1020)
Solhe (1020-1033)
Dakhni (1033-1043)
ਰਾਗੁ ਤੁਖਾਰੀ | Raag Tukhaari
Bara Maha (1107-1110)
Chhant (1110-1117)
ਰਾਗੁ ਕੇਦਾਰਾ | Raag Kedara
Gurbani (1118-1123)
Bhagat Bani (1123-1124)
ਰਾਗੁ ਭੈਰਉ | Raag Bhairo
Gurbani (1125-1152)
Partaal (1153)
Ashtpadiyan (1153-1167)
ਰਾਗੁ ਬਸੰਤੁ | Raag Basant
Gurbani (1168-1187)
Ashtpadiyan (1187-1193)
Vaar Basant (1193-1196)
ਰਾਗੁ ਸਾਰਗ | Raag Saarag
Gurbani (1197-1200)
Partaal (1200-1231)
Ashtpadiyan (1232-1236)
Chhant (1236-1237)
Vaar Saarang (1237-1253)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਲਾਰ | Raag Malaar
Gurbani (1254-1293)
Partaal (1265-1273)
Ashtpadiyan (1273-1278)
Chhant (1278)
Vaar Malaar (1278-91)
Bhagat Bani (1292-93)
ਰਾਗੁ ਕਾਨੜਾ | Raag Kaanraa
Gurbani (1294-96)
Partaal (1296-1318)
Ashtpadiyan (1308-1312)
Chhant (1312)
Vaar Kaanraa
Bhagat Bani (1318)
ਰਾਗੁ ਕਲਿਆਨ | Raag Kalyaan
Gurbani (1319-23)
Ashtpadiyan (1323-26)
ਰਾਗੁ ਪ੍ਰਭਾਤੀ | Raag Prabhaatee
Gurbani (1327-1341)
Ashtpadiyan (1342-51)
ਰਾਗੁ ਜੈਜਾਵੰਤੀ | Raag Jaijaiwanti
Gurbani (1352-53)
Salok | Gatha | Phunahe | Chaubole | Swayiye
Sehskritee Mahala 1
Sehskritee Mahala 5
Gaathaa Mahala 5
Phunhay Mahala 5
Chaubolae Mahala 5
Shaloks Bhagat Kabir
Shaloks Sheikh Farid
Swaiyyae Mahala 5
Swaiyyae in Praise of Gurus
Shaloks in Addition To Vaars
Shalok Ninth Mehl
Mundavanee Mehl 5
ਰਾਗ ਮਾਲਾ, Raag Maalaa
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<blockquote data-quote="Seeker2013" data-source="post: 201332" data-attributes="member: 19755"><p>In the long term I would want to leave india forever and settle in canada and find my dream prince there .</p><p>But immigrating is not any easy thing.</p><p>My sexuality , or rather the circumstances surrounding it, have also exhausted me a lot . I have no future in india. Suppose even if I enter in a relationship with a guy in india, if he leaves me or worse, what options do I have ? hardly any . And yes I too realized a while back parents are the best people ever !</p><p>Parents are the only one who would care about you while no one else does . Mother is the only one who nurses you while no one else does. 2 days back when I broke out to my parents in a sobbing way that I had lied a shit ton , my mom also started crying and started consoling me. Since then, she has been so protective, but I feel no matter how warmth it is , it is also one reason why I am the way I am. I don't wanna blame my mom, that would be evil, but if I ever become a dad tomorrow, I would toughen my kids from the start, and yet continue love them !</p><p>I wish my parents did the same, but then I was always a queer kid .</p><p>Sometimes I feel like my life has become so meaningless. Suicidal thoughts have come one or two times,</p><p></p><p>I have also realized one thing : people don't give a shit about your problems. The best they can do is advice momentarily like how its happening here in your forum , from your help ! </p><p>but people would rather have you suck it up AND to stop cribbing. HELL, I have met people who would rather tell me its not so bad (being gay) in india and that I am the only one who chooses to crib about it . They usually leave with "ok then keep living in your miserable life" when you tell them that you feel they have rose tinted glass view of things. </p><p></p><p>I don't have a career (yet) , because of my sexuality I can't have a supportive family in future. The prospect is terrifying unless something is done about it. <img src="data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAIAAAAAAAP///yH5BAEAAAAALAAAAAABAAEAAAIBRAA7" class="smilie smilie--sprite smilie--sprite3" alt=":(" title="Frown :(" loading="lazy" data-shortname=":(" /> Its so terrifying infact , that many times my future appears a big question mark or dark to me . I will share this too one day with my parents and cry out my pent up feelings,</p><p></p><p>BUT RIGHT NOW, its about career. And now I am so petrified with thoughts of not being able to do it, I am unable to focus on studying for interviews .</p><p>But I also know from experience that because of the very same attitude I have failed numerous times in the past . So time to chin up , do my part and leave the rest to others who have "promised" me to get a job somewhere ,</p><p>thought of Working in a call center is still a petrifying feeling.</p><p></p><p>In any case, I am going to the psychologist because my life is TOTALLY MESSED UP. how the hell am I gonna immigrate to canada to live my life to its potential (finding a boyfriend for life) if my life continues like these</p><p>*shudders*</p><p></p><p>PS: anyways , why am I even online . procrastination + depression + anxiety + carelessness is what ruined me.</p><p>bye</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Seeker2013, post: 201332, member: 19755"] In the long term I would want to leave india forever and settle in canada and find my dream prince there . But immigrating is not any easy thing. My sexuality , or rather the circumstances surrounding it, have also exhausted me a lot . I have no future in india. Suppose even if I enter in a relationship with a guy in india, if he leaves me or worse, what options do I have ? hardly any . And yes I too realized a while back parents are the best people ever ! Parents are the only one who would care about you while no one else does . Mother is the only one who nurses you while no one else does. 2 days back when I broke out to my parents in a sobbing way that I had lied a shit ton , my mom also started crying and started consoling me. Since then, she has been so protective, but I feel no matter how warmth it is , it is also one reason why I am the way I am. I don't wanna blame my mom, that would be evil, but if I ever become a dad tomorrow, I would toughen my kids from the start, and yet continue love them ! I wish my parents did the same, but then I was always a queer kid . Sometimes I feel like my life has become so meaningless. Suicidal thoughts have come one or two times, I have also realized one thing : people don't give a shit about your problems. The best they can do is advice momentarily like how its happening here in your forum , from your help ! but people would rather have you suck it up AND to stop cribbing. HELL, I have met people who would rather tell me its not so bad (being gay) in india and that I am the only one who chooses to crib about it . They usually leave with "ok then keep living in your miserable life" when you tell them that you feel they have rose tinted glass view of things. I don't have a career (yet) , because of my sexuality I can't have a supportive family in future. The prospect is terrifying unless something is done about it. :( Its so terrifying infact , that many times my future appears a big question mark or dark to me . I will share this too one day with my parents and cry out my pent up feelings, BUT RIGHT NOW, its about career. And now I am so petrified with thoughts of not being able to do it, I am unable to focus on studying for interviews . But I also know from experience that because of the very same attitude I have failed numerous times in the past . So time to chin up , do my part and leave the rest to others who have "promised" me to get a job somewhere , thought of Working in a call center is still a petrifying feeling. In any case, I am going to the psychologist because my life is TOTALLY MESSED UP. how the hell am I gonna immigrate to canada to live my life to its potential (finding a boyfriend for life) if my life continues like these *shudders* PS: anyways , why am I even online . procrastination + depression + anxiety + carelessness is what ruined me. bye [/QUOTE]
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