- Jan 31, 2011
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I am now completely alone, no friends, no family, no one, other than my parents, my on line business is good, does not make a fortune, but enough to ensure I am free, I bought another land rover, an old one, she is a good girl, a workhorse, pretty in a 20 year old sort of way.
Love? Hmmm no, I do not believe in it, parental love, yes, I believe in that, very powerful thing, but romeo and juliet love? romance? no, its all agenda, and this is not the voice of bitterness, more the voice of experience, everything is agenda, we live in a society where people are happy by making others jealous of what they have, and not more so than in our own Sikh culture, personally speaking I could not give a toss what anyone thinks, which means I am free, and as for love, its like a disease, it robs you of your mind, yourself, all you need is love? {censored}, all you actually need is to be loveless, because then you are truly free, I have learned that wanting nothing keeps everything nice and simple, having no goals or wants is quite liberating, all you are left with, is today.
Am I SIkh? probably not, I have no love for people, just disdain, I would find it hard to {censored} on someone if they were on fire, truth be told, so no, I am probably not Sikh, nor would I call myself Sikh, however, the concept of truth still fascinates me, as does debating it, so I am still here.
Am I dark? depressed? melancholy, not at all, I find myself giggling to myself most of the time, for years the meaning of life eluded me, I never realised it was so simple, just {censored} everyone off, and do what you want, without causing harm or stress to anyone else. The Sikh concept of loving all cost me dear, cost me a lot of money ,and a lot of time and energy, and it made no difference to anyone, as soon as you stop loving people and helping them, they revert back to who they were, so all my love and help in fact only took time, theirs and mine, and achieved nothing, other than wasted time, and given time is all we have, thats quite a lot of waste.
We are all different, maybe I did it wrong, who knows, who cares, its just not for me, all that love and help shit, I remain, at 48, a mummy and daddys boy, a little innocent child laughing at all the emperors with no clothes, giggling at all the {censored}s following them, I get my best happiness from making my mum and dad happy, I have retained the same innocence and childlike thoughts I had when I was 11, I am just a big kid now in mans body, I don't know how to impress people, how to chat people up, how to manipulate people, I don't need to, as I do not interact with them, suits me.....
Love? Hmmm no, I do not believe in it, parental love, yes, I believe in that, very powerful thing, but romeo and juliet love? romance? no, its all agenda, and this is not the voice of bitterness, more the voice of experience, everything is agenda, we live in a society where people are happy by making others jealous of what they have, and not more so than in our own Sikh culture, personally speaking I could not give a toss what anyone thinks, which means I am free, and as for love, its like a disease, it robs you of your mind, yourself, all you need is love? {censored}, all you actually need is to be loveless, because then you are truly free, I have learned that wanting nothing keeps everything nice and simple, having no goals or wants is quite liberating, all you are left with, is today.
Am I SIkh? probably not, I have no love for people, just disdain, I would find it hard to {censored} on someone if they were on fire, truth be told, so no, I am probably not Sikh, nor would I call myself Sikh, however, the concept of truth still fascinates me, as does debating it, so I am still here.
Am I dark? depressed? melancholy, not at all, I find myself giggling to myself most of the time, for years the meaning of life eluded me, I never realised it was so simple, just {censored} everyone off, and do what you want, without causing harm or stress to anyone else. The Sikh concept of loving all cost me dear, cost me a lot of money ,and a lot of time and energy, and it made no difference to anyone, as soon as you stop loving people and helping them, they revert back to who they were, so all my love and help in fact only took time, theirs and mine, and achieved nothing, other than wasted time, and given time is all we have, thats quite a lot of waste.
We are all different, maybe I did it wrong, who knows, who cares, its just not for me, all that love and help shit, I remain, at 48, a mummy and daddys boy, a little innocent child laughing at all the emperors with no clothes, giggling at all the {censored}s following them, I get my best happiness from making my mum and dad happy, I have retained the same innocence and childlike thoughts I had when I was 11, I am just a big kid now in mans body, I don't know how to impress people, how to chat people up, how to manipulate people, I don't need to, as I do not interact with them, suits me.....