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Composition, Arrangement & Layout
ਜਪੁ | Jup
ਸੋ ਦਰੁ | So Dar
ਸੋਹਿਲਾ | Sohilaa
ਰਾਗੁ ਸਿਰੀਰਾਗੁ | Raag Siree-Raag
Gurbani (14-53)
Ashtpadiyan (53-71)
Gurbani (71-74)
Pahre (74-78)
Chhant (78-81)
Vanjara (81-82)
Vaar Siri Raag (83-91)
Bhagat Bani (91-93)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਾਝ | Raag Maajh
Gurbani (94-109)
Ashtpadi (109)
Ashtpadiyan (110-129)
Ashtpadi (129-130)
Ashtpadiyan (130-133)
Bara Maha (133-136)
Din Raen (136-137)
Vaar Maajh Ki (137-150)
ਰਾਗੁ ਗਉੜੀ | Raag Gauree
Gurbani (151-185)
Quartets/Couplets (185-220)
Ashtpadiyan (220-234)
Karhalei (234-235)
Ashtpadiyan (235-242)
Chhant (242-249)
Baavan Akhari (250-262)
Sukhmani (262-296)
Thittee (296-300)
Gauree kii Vaar (300-323)
Gurbani (323-330)
Ashtpadiyan (330-340)
Baavan Akhari (340-343)
Thintteen (343-344)
Vaar Kabir (344-345)
Bhagat Bani (345-346)
ਰਾਗੁ ਆਸਾ | Raag Aasaa
Gurbani (347-348)
Chaupaday (348-364)
Panchpadde (364-365)
Kaafee (365-409)
Aasaavaree (409-411)
Ashtpadiyan (411-432)
Patee (432-435)
Chhant (435-462)
Vaar Aasaa (462-475)
Bhagat Bani (475-488)
ਰਾਗੁ ਗੂਜਰੀ | Raag Goojaree
Gurbani (489-503)
Ashtpadiyan (503-508)
Vaar Gujari (508-517)
Vaar Gujari (517-526)
ਰਾਗੁ ਦੇਵਗੰਧਾਰੀ | Raag Dayv-Gandhaaree
Gurbani (527-536)
ਰਾਗੁ ਬਿਹਾਗੜਾ | Raag Bihaagraa
Gurbani (537-556)
Chhant (538-548)
Vaar Bihaagraa (548-556)
ਰਾਗੁ ਵਡਹੰਸ | Raag Wadhans
Gurbani (557-564)
Ashtpadiyan (564-565)
Chhant (565-575)
Ghoriaan (575-578)
Alaahaniiaa (578-582)
Vaar Wadhans (582-594)
ਰਾਗੁ ਸੋਰਠਿ | Raag Sorath
Gurbani (595-634)
Asatpadhiya (634-642)
Vaar Sorath (642-659)
ਰਾਗੁ ਧਨਾਸਰੀ | Raag Dhanasaree
Gurbani (660-685)
Astpadhiya (685-687)
Chhant (687-691)
Bhagat Bani (691-695)
ਰਾਗੁ ਜੈਤਸਰੀ | Raag Jaitsree
Gurbani (696-703)
Chhant (703-705)
Vaar Jaitsaree (705-710)
Bhagat Bani (710)
ਰਾਗੁ ਟੋਡੀ | Raag Todee
ਰਾਗੁ ਬੈਰਾੜੀ | Raag Bairaaree
ਰਾਗੁ ਤਿਲੰਗ | Raag Tilang
Gurbani (721-727)
Bhagat Bani (727)
ਰਾਗੁ ਸੂਹੀ | Raag Suhi
Gurbani (728-750)
Ashtpadiyan (750-761)
Kaafee (761-762)
Suchajee (762)
Gunvantee (763)
Chhant (763-785)
Vaar Soohee (785-792)
Bhagat Bani (792-794)
ਰਾਗੁ ਬਿਲਾਵਲੁ | Raag Bilaaval
Gurbani (795-831)
Ashtpadiyan (831-838)
Thitteen (838-840)
Vaar Sat (841-843)
Chhant (843-848)
Vaar Bilaaval (849-855)
Bhagat Bani (855-858)
ਰਾਗੁ ਗੋਂਡ | Raag Gond
Gurbani (859-869)
Ashtpadiyan (869)
Bhagat Bani (870-875)
ਰਾਗੁ ਰਾਮਕਲੀ | Raag Ramkalee
Ashtpadiyan (902-916)
Gurbani (876-902)
Anand (917-922)
Sadd (923-924)
Chhant (924-929)
Dakhnee (929-938)
Sidh Gosat (938-946)
Vaar Ramkalee (947-968)
ਰਾਗੁ ਨਟ ਨਾਰਾਇਨ | Raag Nat Narayan
Gurbani (975-980)
Ashtpadiyan (980-983)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਾਲੀ ਗਉੜਾ | Raag Maalee Gauraa
Gurbani (984-988)
Bhagat Bani (988)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਾਰੂ | Raag Maaroo
Gurbani (889-1008)
Ashtpadiyan (1008-1014)
Kaafee (1014-1016)
Ashtpadiyan (1016-1019)
Anjulian (1019-1020)
Solhe (1020-1033)
Dakhni (1033-1043)
ਰਾਗੁ ਤੁਖਾਰੀ | Raag Tukhaari
Bara Maha (1107-1110)
Chhant (1110-1117)
ਰਾਗੁ ਕੇਦਾਰਾ | Raag Kedara
Gurbani (1118-1123)
Bhagat Bani (1123-1124)
ਰਾਗੁ ਭੈਰਉ | Raag Bhairo
Gurbani (1125-1152)
Partaal (1153)
Ashtpadiyan (1153-1167)
ਰਾਗੁ ਬਸੰਤੁ | Raag Basant
Gurbani (1168-1187)
Ashtpadiyan (1187-1193)
Vaar Basant (1193-1196)
ਰਾਗੁ ਸਾਰਗ | Raag Saarag
Gurbani (1197-1200)
Partaal (1200-1231)
Ashtpadiyan (1232-1236)
Chhant (1236-1237)
Vaar Saarang (1237-1253)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਲਾਰ | Raag Malaar
Gurbani (1254-1293)
Partaal (1265-1273)
Ashtpadiyan (1273-1278)
Chhant (1278)
Vaar Malaar (1278-91)
Bhagat Bani (1292-93)
ਰਾਗੁ ਕਾਨੜਾ | Raag Kaanraa
Gurbani (1294-96)
Partaal (1296-1318)
Ashtpadiyan (1308-1312)
Chhant (1312)
Vaar Kaanraa
Bhagat Bani (1318)
ਰਾਗੁ ਕਲਿਆਨ | Raag Kalyaan
Gurbani (1319-23)
Ashtpadiyan (1323-26)
ਰਾਗੁ ਪ੍ਰਭਾਤੀ | Raag Prabhaatee
Gurbani (1327-1341)
Ashtpadiyan (1342-51)
ਰਾਗੁ ਜੈਜਾਵੰਤੀ | Raag Jaijaiwanti
Gurbani (1352-53)
Salok | Gatha | Phunahe | Chaubole | Swayiye
Sehskritee Mahala 1
Sehskritee Mahala 5
Gaathaa Mahala 5
Phunhay Mahala 5
Chaubolae Mahala 5
Shaloks Bhagat Kabir
Shaloks Sheikh Farid
Swaiyyae Mahala 5
Swaiyyae in Praise of Gurus
Shaloks in Addition To Vaars
Shalok Ninth Mehl
Mundavanee Mehl 5
ਰਾਗ ਮਾਲਾ, Raag Maalaa
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<blockquote data-quote="Harry Haller" data-source="post: 203669" data-attributes="member: 14641"><p>It has been a terrible awful week, not in terms of things that have taken place, but more my state of mind. I have tried my best to come up to the level required and failed miserably, I have just found out this morning that the reason I have failed miserably is the simple reason I tried my best, makes no sense? Well it didn't to me till about an hour ago either.</p><p></p><p>After Alfie died, I decided it was time to grow up, be a man, an adult, a bit like my brother, who is without doubt an alpha male. I admire my brother a lot, he holds down an important job, he is not like me, he decided to grow up a few years ago, and I am deeply proud of him.</p><p></p><p>I will skip the way in which I decided to grow up and instead detail the conversation I had an hour ago when Sian gave me a lift to work at 5.30am. She basically asked me to stop growing up and just go back to being who I was, 'but I am like a child' I protested, ' have you not preferred me me all adult?', 'Harry' she said ' what I love about you most is your innocence, the fact that you do not behave like most men, dominant and in control, you listen, your quick to apologise, quick to defuse a situation without feeling a loss of pride or ego, an argument becomes a discussion with no winners or losers, and in one week, you have forgot all that and reverted to this image in your head of what a man is'</p><p></p><p>she went on, and I protested, 'but I am an idiot, constantly making you laugh and trying to cuddle you when your busy, and encouraging you to sleep in on a sunday till 3pm with all the animals lying in bed and the sunday papers all over the floor, when we should be doing the garden, or painting or washing the car, would you not prefer a strong, cool, man type who did not act like a love sick puppy 24 hours a day?'</p><p></p><p>'Harry' she replied, ' I am the luckiest woman in the world to have you, and every now and then when you deviate from who you really are, it always ends in tears, some men can spend all day acting a part, or behaving like the herd, but for you it just causes you to become more and more depressed, this is not who you are, embrace who you are, and then you will embrace God, embrace this false personality, and you are embracing a stone idol'</p><p></p><p>She continued 'your problem is that instead of just making a few minor changes, you have to call everything in your personality idiotic, and then embrace what you feel to be manly, so, I have decided to make these changes for you'</p><p></p><p>She then made some very good subtle suggestions that I promised to embrace, mainly regarding my diet, my dress, and slight changes to my conversation around people I respect.</p><p></p><p>So I am back to being an idiot again, I gently discuss, rather than argue, I kiss and cuddle my wife at every chance, I look into her eyes and tell her she is beautiful when I wake up, I rub her back, massage her neck, play with Dan, I give all of myself to everyone I meet, I am honest and truthful in business, I crack bad jokes all day, I play practical jokes on my shop neighbours, for most of last week, the shop was sterile, clean, bare, uninviting, within an hour, it has become busy, messy,</p><p></p><p>I find it hard to believe that the golden thread that guides me, the Hukam that I believe in so much, is this!, just be yourself, as best you can, oh well, one less thing to worry about</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Harry Haller, post: 203669, member: 14641"] It has been a terrible awful week, not in terms of things that have taken place, but more my state of mind. I have tried my best to come up to the level required and failed miserably, I have just found out this morning that the reason I have failed miserably is the simple reason I tried my best, makes no sense? Well it didn't to me till about an hour ago either. After Alfie died, I decided it was time to grow up, be a man, an adult, a bit like my brother, who is without doubt an alpha male. I admire my brother a lot, he holds down an important job, he is not like me, he decided to grow up a few years ago, and I am deeply proud of him. I will skip the way in which I decided to grow up and instead detail the conversation I had an hour ago when Sian gave me a lift to work at 5.30am. She basically asked me to stop growing up and just go back to being who I was, 'but I am like a child' I protested, ' have you not preferred me me all adult?', 'Harry' she said ' what I love about you most is your innocence, the fact that you do not behave like most men, dominant and in control, you listen, your quick to apologise, quick to defuse a situation without feeling a loss of pride or ego, an argument becomes a discussion with no winners or losers, and in one week, you have forgot all that and reverted to this image in your head of what a man is' she went on, and I protested, 'but I am an idiot, constantly making you laugh and trying to cuddle you when your busy, and encouraging you to sleep in on a sunday till 3pm with all the animals lying in bed and the sunday papers all over the floor, when we should be doing the garden, or painting or washing the car, would you not prefer a strong, cool, man type who did not act like a love sick puppy 24 hours a day?' 'Harry' she replied, ' I am the luckiest woman in the world to have you, and every now and then when you deviate from who you really are, it always ends in tears, some men can spend all day acting a part, or behaving like the herd, but for you it just causes you to become more and more depressed, this is not who you are, embrace who you are, and then you will embrace God, embrace this false personality, and you are embracing a stone idol' She continued 'your problem is that instead of just making a few minor changes, you have to call everything in your personality idiotic, and then embrace what you feel to be manly, so, I have decided to make these changes for you' She then made some very good subtle suggestions that I promised to embrace, mainly regarding my diet, my dress, and slight changes to my conversation around people I respect. So I am back to being an idiot again, I gently discuss, rather than argue, I kiss and cuddle my wife at every chance, I look into her eyes and tell her she is beautiful when I wake up, I rub her back, massage her neck, play with Dan, I give all of myself to everyone I meet, I am honest and truthful in business, I crack bad jokes all day, I play practical jokes on my shop neighbours, for most of last week, the shop was sterile, clean, bare, uninviting, within an hour, it has become busy, messy, I find it hard to believe that the golden thread that guides me, the Hukam that I believe in so much, is this!, just be yourself, as best you can, oh well, one less thing to worry about [/QUOTE]
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