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Composition, Arrangement & Layout
ਜਪੁ | Jup
ਸੋ ਦਰੁ | So Dar
ਸੋਹਿਲਾ | Sohilaa
ਰਾਗੁ ਸਿਰੀਰਾਗੁ | Raag Siree-Raag
Gurbani (14-53)
Ashtpadiyan (53-71)
Gurbani (71-74)
Pahre (74-78)
Chhant (78-81)
Vanjara (81-82)
Vaar Siri Raag (83-91)
Bhagat Bani (91-93)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਾਝ | Raag Maajh
Gurbani (94-109)
Ashtpadi (109)
Ashtpadiyan (110-129)
Ashtpadi (129-130)
Ashtpadiyan (130-133)
Bara Maha (133-136)
Din Raen (136-137)
Vaar Maajh Ki (137-150)
ਰਾਗੁ ਗਉੜੀ | Raag Gauree
Gurbani (151-185)
Quartets/Couplets (185-220)
Ashtpadiyan (220-234)
Karhalei (234-235)
Ashtpadiyan (235-242)
Chhant (242-249)
Baavan Akhari (250-262)
Sukhmani (262-296)
Thittee (296-300)
Gauree kii Vaar (300-323)
Gurbani (323-330)
Ashtpadiyan (330-340)
Baavan Akhari (340-343)
Thintteen (343-344)
Vaar Kabir (344-345)
Bhagat Bani (345-346)
ਰਾਗੁ ਆਸਾ | Raag Aasaa
Gurbani (347-348)
Chaupaday (348-364)
Panchpadde (364-365)
Kaafee (365-409)
Aasaavaree (409-411)
Ashtpadiyan (411-432)
Patee (432-435)
Chhant (435-462)
Vaar Aasaa (462-475)
Bhagat Bani (475-488)
ਰਾਗੁ ਗੂਜਰੀ | Raag Goojaree
Gurbani (489-503)
Ashtpadiyan (503-508)
Vaar Gujari (508-517)
Vaar Gujari (517-526)
ਰਾਗੁ ਦੇਵਗੰਧਾਰੀ | Raag Dayv-Gandhaaree
Gurbani (527-536)
ਰਾਗੁ ਬਿਹਾਗੜਾ | Raag Bihaagraa
Gurbani (537-556)
Chhant (538-548)
Vaar Bihaagraa (548-556)
ਰਾਗੁ ਵਡਹੰਸ | Raag Wadhans
Gurbani (557-564)
Ashtpadiyan (564-565)
Chhant (565-575)
Ghoriaan (575-578)
Alaahaniiaa (578-582)
Vaar Wadhans (582-594)
ਰਾਗੁ ਸੋਰਠਿ | Raag Sorath
Gurbani (595-634)
Asatpadhiya (634-642)
Vaar Sorath (642-659)
ਰਾਗੁ ਧਨਾਸਰੀ | Raag Dhanasaree
Gurbani (660-685)
Astpadhiya (685-687)
Chhant (687-691)
Bhagat Bani (691-695)
ਰਾਗੁ ਜੈਤਸਰੀ | Raag Jaitsree
Gurbani (696-703)
Chhant (703-705)
Vaar Jaitsaree (705-710)
Bhagat Bani (710)
ਰਾਗੁ ਟੋਡੀ | Raag Todee
ਰਾਗੁ ਬੈਰਾੜੀ | Raag Bairaaree
ਰਾਗੁ ਤਿਲੰਗ | Raag Tilang
Gurbani (721-727)
Bhagat Bani (727)
ਰਾਗੁ ਸੂਹੀ | Raag Suhi
Gurbani (728-750)
Ashtpadiyan (750-761)
Kaafee (761-762)
Suchajee (762)
Gunvantee (763)
Chhant (763-785)
Vaar Soohee (785-792)
Bhagat Bani (792-794)
ਰਾਗੁ ਬਿਲਾਵਲੁ | Raag Bilaaval
Gurbani (795-831)
Ashtpadiyan (831-838)
Thitteen (838-840)
Vaar Sat (841-843)
Chhant (843-848)
Vaar Bilaaval (849-855)
Bhagat Bani (855-858)
ਰਾਗੁ ਗੋਂਡ | Raag Gond
Gurbani (859-869)
Ashtpadiyan (869)
Bhagat Bani (870-875)
ਰਾਗੁ ਰਾਮਕਲੀ | Raag Ramkalee
Ashtpadiyan (902-916)
Gurbani (876-902)
Anand (917-922)
Sadd (923-924)
Chhant (924-929)
Dakhnee (929-938)
Sidh Gosat (938-946)
Vaar Ramkalee (947-968)
ਰਾਗੁ ਨਟ ਨਾਰਾਇਨ | Raag Nat Narayan
Gurbani (975-980)
Ashtpadiyan (980-983)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਾਲੀ ਗਉੜਾ | Raag Maalee Gauraa
Gurbani (984-988)
Bhagat Bani (988)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਾਰੂ | Raag Maaroo
Gurbani (889-1008)
Ashtpadiyan (1008-1014)
Kaafee (1014-1016)
Ashtpadiyan (1016-1019)
Anjulian (1019-1020)
Solhe (1020-1033)
Dakhni (1033-1043)
ਰਾਗੁ ਤੁਖਾਰੀ | Raag Tukhaari
Bara Maha (1107-1110)
Chhant (1110-1117)
ਰਾਗੁ ਕੇਦਾਰਾ | Raag Kedara
Gurbani (1118-1123)
Bhagat Bani (1123-1124)
ਰਾਗੁ ਭੈਰਉ | Raag Bhairo
Gurbani (1125-1152)
Partaal (1153)
Ashtpadiyan (1153-1167)
ਰਾਗੁ ਬਸੰਤੁ | Raag Basant
Gurbani (1168-1187)
Ashtpadiyan (1187-1193)
Vaar Basant (1193-1196)
ਰਾਗੁ ਸਾਰਗ | Raag Saarag
Gurbani (1197-1200)
Partaal (1200-1231)
Ashtpadiyan (1232-1236)
Chhant (1236-1237)
Vaar Saarang (1237-1253)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਲਾਰ | Raag Malaar
Gurbani (1254-1293)
Partaal (1265-1273)
Ashtpadiyan (1273-1278)
Chhant (1278)
Vaar Malaar (1278-91)
Bhagat Bani (1292-93)
ਰਾਗੁ ਕਾਨੜਾ | Raag Kaanraa
Gurbani (1294-96)
Partaal (1296-1318)
Ashtpadiyan (1308-1312)
Chhant (1312)
Vaar Kaanraa
Bhagat Bani (1318)
ਰਾਗੁ ਕਲਿਆਨ | Raag Kalyaan
Gurbani (1319-23)
Ashtpadiyan (1323-26)
ਰਾਗੁ ਪ੍ਰਭਾਤੀ | Raag Prabhaatee
Gurbani (1327-1341)
Ashtpadiyan (1342-51)
ਰਾਗੁ ਜੈਜਾਵੰਤੀ | Raag Jaijaiwanti
Gurbani (1352-53)
Salok | Gatha | Phunahe | Chaubole | Swayiye
Sehskritee Mahala 1
Sehskritee Mahala 5
Gaathaa Mahala 5
Phunhay Mahala 5
Chaubolae Mahala 5
Shaloks Bhagat Kabir
Shaloks Sheikh Farid
Swaiyyae Mahala 5
Swaiyyae in Praise of Gurus
Shaloks in Addition To Vaars
Shalok Ninth Mehl
Mundavanee Mehl 5
ਰਾਗ ਮਾਲਾ, Raag Maalaa
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<blockquote data-quote="Harry Haller" data-source="post: 203650" data-attributes="member: 14641"><p>The angiogram appt arrived this morning, it is booked for Friday...</p><p></p><p>I have been waiting for this day for 7 years, judgement day, if I am really lucky, they will be as clean as a babies arteries, however, they are not arteries, they are veins, pulled from my left leg, and are not as hardy as arteries, so, I should expect some clogging, either way, I think I have pushed the ante as far as I can, when I had my bypass, and drifted further and further into less exercise, less good diet habits, beer, I swore to myself that as long as I was healthy, I would carry on, however, the angiogram has put a stop to that, 'angiogram day' aka 'judgement day' is here, I will now be judged on my lifestyle for the last 7 years, the very fact that I have been booked in is enough, its time to take stock now and embrace what will probably be the last third of my life.</p><p></p><p>Do I wish to take this personality with me? err NO, so it is the end, whoever I am at the minute is about to cease, I can feel it inside me, the same as it always feels whenever a change is coming, I have a 6 days to focus on everything I have learned, everything I know, combine it all into a plan, and move forward.</p><p></p><p>I lay awake in bed last night, thinking of Creator, how tempting it is to make deals, if you can see your way to making my angiogram clear, I'll become a Gursikh, I'll be a better son, a better stepfather, a better husband, but there are no deals, my actions have left a trail, a mark, and Friday, when I am lying naked on the cold operating table with a needle in my thigh snaking towards my heart, I will wonder, and I will reflect, and I will hope.</p><p></p><p>The best scenario is unlikely, I am content with 1 vein/artery blocked, which they should be able to stent, if that happens, I will be happy, the worst scenario is total blockage, which was the result of my last angiogram, I did not leave hospital for 3 weeks that time, followed by a very quick bypass, and 2 months stuck at home, this time who knows, my mother says pray and trust in God, but this has nothing to do with God, and everything to do with me, I refuse to go crying to God begging for help, what am I supposed to say? it is like a small child told time and time again not to touch a fire, and finally the child gets burned and goes crying to dad, well Its time to take this one on the chin, either way, this personality has had its day, its got me this far, but its time for something to reflect changing circumstances, I need to be there for my parents as they get older, my brother, my wife, my animals, I need to be a better Sikh, I need to exercise my brain, to think, I thought being a Sikh was easy, but it is not, it requires a huge amount of thought and wisdom, and it is incredibly personal, to be honest, I am excited..</p><p></p><p>Today for the first time in years, I did not dress as my usual overgrown skater boy look, I dressed as a man, brown boots, Khaki dockers, black polo neck, matching socks, aftershave, I did get a few strange looks at work...., but I also, after tidying the shop, realised I was getting a better class of customer, one even said, oh youve just opened, uhmm no, we've been here 2 years, oh, Ive never noticed this shop, no, I thought, because it does not normally look like this,</p><p></p><p>I feel very uhmm normal............, what is most scary is people have started having normal conversations with me, about the weather, politics, family life, I did not ask one customer about their sex life all day!</p><p></p><p>so lets see where this goes.......</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Harry Haller, post: 203650, member: 14641"] The angiogram appt arrived this morning, it is booked for Friday... I have been waiting for this day for 7 years, judgement day, if I am really lucky, they will be as clean as a babies arteries, however, they are not arteries, they are veins, pulled from my left leg, and are not as hardy as arteries, so, I should expect some clogging, either way, I think I have pushed the ante as far as I can, when I had my bypass, and drifted further and further into less exercise, less good diet habits, beer, I swore to myself that as long as I was healthy, I would carry on, however, the angiogram has put a stop to that, 'angiogram day' aka 'judgement day' is here, I will now be judged on my lifestyle for the last 7 years, the very fact that I have been booked in is enough, its time to take stock now and embrace what will probably be the last third of my life. Do I wish to take this personality with me? err NO, so it is the end, whoever I am at the minute is about to cease, I can feel it inside me, the same as it always feels whenever a change is coming, I have a 6 days to focus on everything I have learned, everything I know, combine it all into a plan, and move forward. I lay awake in bed last night, thinking of Creator, how tempting it is to make deals, if you can see your way to making my angiogram clear, I'll become a Gursikh, I'll be a better son, a better stepfather, a better husband, but there are no deals, my actions have left a trail, a mark, and Friday, when I am lying naked on the cold operating table with a needle in my thigh snaking towards my heart, I will wonder, and I will reflect, and I will hope. The best scenario is unlikely, I am content with 1 vein/artery blocked, which they should be able to stent, if that happens, I will be happy, the worst scenario is total blockage, which was the result of my last angiogram, I did not leave hospital for 3 weeks that time, followed by a very quick bypass, and 2 months stuck at home, this time who knows, my mother says pray and trust in God, but this has nothing to do with God, and everything to do with me, I refuse to go crying to God begging for help, what am I supposed to say? it is like a small child told time and time again not to touch a fire, and finally the child gets burned and goes crying to dad, well Its time to take this one on the chin, either way, this personality has had its day, its got me this far, but its time for something to reflect changing circumstances, I need to be there for my parents as they get older, my brother, my wife, my animals, I need to be a better Sikh, I need to exercise my brain, to think, I thought being a Sikh was easy, but it is not, it requires a huge amount of thought and wisdom, and it is incredibly personal, to be honest, I am excited.. Today for the first time in years, I did not dress as my usual overgrown skater boy look, I dressed as a man, brown boots, Khaki dockers, black polo neck, matching socks, aftershave, I did get a few strange looks at work...., but I also, after tidying the shop, realised I was getting a better class of customer, one even said, oh youve just opened, uhmm no, we've been here 2 years, oh, Ive never noticed this shop, no, I thought, because it does not normally look like this, I feel very uhmm normal............, what is most scary is people have started having normal conversations with me, about the weather, politics, family life, I did not ask one customer about their sex life all day! so lets see where this goes....... [/QUOTE]
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