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Composition, Arrangement & Layout
ਜਪੁ | Jup
ਸੋ ਦਰੁ | So Dar
ਸੋਹਿਲਾ | Sohilaa
ਰਾਗੁ ਸਿਰੀਰਾਗੁ | Raag Siree-Raag
Gurbani (14-53)
Ashtpadiyan (53-71)
Gurbani (71-74)
Pahre (74-78)
Chhant (78-81)
Vanjara (81-82)
Vaar Siri Raag (83-91)
Bhagat Bani (91-93)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਾਝ | Raag Maajh
Gurbani (94-109)
Ashtpadi (109)
Ashtpadiyan (110-129)
Ashtpadi (129-130)
Ashtpadiyan (130-133)
Bara Maha (133-136)
Din Raen (136-137)
Vaar Maajh Ki (137-150)
ਰਾਗੁ ਗਉੜੀ | Raag Gauree
Gurbani (151-185)
Quartets/Couplets (185-220)
Ashtpadiyan (220-234)
Karhalei (234-235)
Ashtpadiyan (235-242)
Chhant (242-249)
Baavan Akhari (250-262)
Sukhmani (262-296)
Thittee (296-300)
Gauree kii Vaar (300-323)
Gurbani (323-330)
Ashtpadiyan (330-340)
Baavan Akhari (340-343)
Thintteen (343-344)
Vaar Kabir (344-345)
Bhagat Bani (345-346)
ਰਾਗੁ ਆਸਾ | Raag Aasaa
Gurbani (347-348)
Chaupaday (348-364)
Panchpadde (364-365)
Kaafee (365-409)
Aasaavaree (409-411)
Ashtpadiyan (411-432)
Patee (432-435)
Chhant (435-462)
Vaar Aasaa (462-475)
Bhagat Bani (475-488)
ਰਾਗੁ ਗੂਜਰੀ | Raag Goojaree
Gurbani (489-503)
Ashtpadiyan (503-508)
Vaar Gujari (508-517)
Vaar Gujari (517-526)
ਰਾਗੁ ਦੇਵਗੰਧਾਰੀ | Raag Dayv-Gandhaaree
Gurbani (527-536)
ਰਾਗੁ ਬਿਹਾਗੜਾ | Raag Bihaagraa
Gurbani (537-556)
Chhant (538-548)
Vaar Bihaagraa (548-556)
ਰਾਗੁ ਵਡਹੰਸ | Raag Wadhans
Gurbani (557-564)
Ashtpadiyan (564-565)
Chhant (565-575)
Ghoriaan (575-578)
Alaahaniiaa (578-582)
Vaar Wadhans (582-594)
ਰਾਗੁ ਸੋਰਠਿ | Raag Sorath
Gurbani (595-634)
Asatpadhiya (634-642)
Vaar Sorath (642-659)
ਰਾਗੁ ਧਨਾਸਰੀ | Raag Dhanasaree
Gurbani (660-685)
Astpadhiya (685-687)
Chhant (687-691)
Bhagat Bani (691-695)
ਰਾਗੁ ਜੈਤਸਰੀ | Raag Jaitsree
Gurbani (696-703)
Chhant (703-705)
Vaar Jaitsaree (705-710)
Bhagat Bani (710)
ਰਾਗੁ ਟੋਡੀ | Raag Todee
ਰਾਗੁ ਬੈਰਾੜੀ | Raag Bairaaree
ਰਾਗੁ ਤਿਲੰਗ | Raag Tilang
Gurbani (721-727)
Bhagat Bani (727)
ਰਾਗੁ ਸੂਹੀ | Raag Suhi
Gurbani (728-750)
Ashtpadiyan (750-761)
Kaafee (761-762)
Suchajee (762)
Gunvantee (763)
Chhant (763-785)
Vaar Soohee (785-792)
Bhagat Bani (792-794)
ਰਾਗੁ ਬਿਲਾਵਲੁ | Raag Bilaaval
Gurbani (795-831)
Ashtpadiyan (831-838)
Thitteen (838-840)
Vaar Sat (841-843)
Chhant (843-848)
Vaar Bilaaval (849-855)
Bhagat Bani (855-858)
ਰਾਗੁ ਗੋਂਡ | Raag Gond
Gurbani (859-869)
Ashtpadiyan (869)
Bhagat Bani (870-875)
ਰਾਗੁ ਰਾਮਕਲੀ | Raag Ramkalee
Ashtpadiyan (902-916)
Gurbani (876-902)
Anand (917-922)
Sadd (923-924)
Chhant (924-929)
Dakhnee (929-938)
Sidh Gosat (938-946)
Vaar Ramkalee (947-968)
ਰਾਗੁ ਨਟ ਨਾਰਾਇਨ | Raag Nat Narayan
Gurbani (975-980)
Ashtpadiyan (980-983)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਾਲੀ ਗਉੜਾ | Raag Maalee Gauraa
Gurbani (984-988)
Bhagat Bani (988)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਾਰੂ | Raag Maaroo
Gurbani (889-1008)
Ashtpadiyan (1008-1014)
Kaafee (1014-1016)
Ashtpadiyan (1016-1019)
Anjulian (1019-1020)
Solhe (1020-1033)
Dakhni (1033-1043)
ਰਾਗੁ ਤੁਖਾਰੀ | Raag Tukhaari
Bara Maha (1107-1110)
Chhant (1110-1117)
ਰਾਗੁ ਕੇਦਾਰਾ | Raag Kedara
Gurbani (1118-1123)
Bhagat Bani (1123-1124)
ਰਾਗੁ ਭੈਰਉ | Raag Bhairo
Gurbani (1125-1152)
Partaal (1153)
Ashtpadiyan (1153-1167)
ਰਾਗੁ ਬਸੰਤੁ | Raag Basant
Gurbani (1168-1187)
Ashtpadiyan (1187-1193)
Vaar Basant (1193-1196)
ਰਾਗੁ ਸਾਰਗ | Raag Saarag
Gurbani (1197-1200)
Partaal (1200-1231)
Ashtpadiyan (1232-1236)
Chhant (1236-1237)
Vaar Saarang (1237-1253)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਲਾਰ | Raag Malaar
Gurbani (1254-1293)
Partaal (1265-1273)
Ashtpadiyan (1273-1278)
Chhant (1278)
Vaar Malaar (1278-91)
Bhagat Bani (1292-93)
ਰਾਗੁ ਕਾਨੜਾ | Raag Kaanraa
Gurbani (1294-96)
Partaal (1296-1318)
Ashtpadiyan (1308-1312)
Chhant (1312)
Vaar Kaanraa
Bhagat Bani (1318)
ਰਾਗੁ ਕਲਿਆਨ | Raag Kalyaan
Gurbani (1319-23)
Ashtpadiyan (1323-26)
ਰਾਗੁ ਪ੍ਰਭਾਤੀ | Raag Prabhaatee
Gurbani (1327-1341)
Ashtpadiyan (1342-51)
ਰਾਗੁ ਜੈਜਾਵੰਤੀ | Raag Jaijaiwanti
Gurbani (1352-53)
Salok | Gatha | Phunahe | Chaubole | Swayiye
Sehskritee Mahala 1
Sehskritee Mahala 5
Gaathaa Mahala 5
Phunhay Mahala 5
Chaubolae Mahala 5
Shaloks Bhagat Kabir
Shaloks Sheikh Farid
Swaiyyae Mahala 5
Swaiyyae in Praise of Gurus
Shaloks in Addition To Vaars
Shalok Ninth Mehl
Mundavanee Mehl 5
ਰਾਗ ਮਾਲਾ, Raag Maalaa
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<blockquote data-quote="Harry Haller" data-source="post: 146177" data-attributes="member: 14641"><p>Many thanks to all the enlightened people who have shared in this discussion, I would like to make it quite clear though, that I am a fool. At no point would I dream of trying to say that being an atheist is better than being a sikh, however it is better for me in this current time.</p><p> </p><p>Allow me to explain, bankruptcy hit me hard 15 years ago, up until then I had always thought of myself as one of gods favourites, I felt I could walk on water, just so long as I kept up the magical rituals that I had observed everyone else doing, so I drank, slept around, lied, cheated, but I figured as long as I kept my turban and beard, and believed in god, I would be fine. Of course events caught up with me, and in my fall, I lost everything, now when I mean everything, I mean my ego, pride, belief, joy, in short, it felt like I had died. I kept fighting until the last possible moment, at the time, I had also a huge interest in the german author herman hesse, whose writing I found hugely inspirational, one of his books, The Steppenwolf, I found was almost like reading a blueprint to my soul, amongst other concepts was one regarding the suicides. If you know that your death is likely to be by your own hand, it gives you several strengths, not least that life becomes a lucid dream where everything is possible, as there are no consequences, together with my fasle faith in a false god (that god was not waheguru, it was a *******ised version of god i had invented in my head), this meant that I had two options on how to deal with a mess of huge proportions, one, to immerse myself in god (however given that my god validated everything that I had done, this did not seem too great an option, or go with the book. I decided to go with the book, I did not particularly want to be around to clear up the mess, given that there would also be consequences. </p><p> </p><p>To cut a long story short, I failed, and my failure was public, at that time, I suppose I should really had made the effort to try and find 'the true king', but I didnt, I became a husk, a walking zombie, I also realised how everything I believed in was wrong, the desire for power, the big cars, being a player, it all meant nothing, with a heavy heart, and not knowing who god was anymore, but realising that I was a very bad sikh, I cut my hair and shaved my beard, and devoted the next 15 years to trying to make a difference. I called myself an atheist, because I did not believe in god, that is not to say I did not believe in the existance of god, but I rejected any positive effect his presence may have had on me, instead I concentrated on his orders, and there were many, and I hated him for it. As far as I was concerned he did not love me anymore, and the only way back was to do his will without his love or his touching me, so I did, for a year, 2 , 3, 7, 10 years passed. Finally after 15 years, I sensed a shift, a change in something, and in January of this year something made me join this forum. </p><p> </p><p>God did not make me go through this, for some reason I did it to myself, a complete rejection of all things godly other than sewa. </p><p> </p><p>So, please bear in mind dear sangat you are having this debate with a fool, who does not quite know why he feels the way he does, but today,the thought of following the ultimate truth has excited me in a way that I have not felt excited in a long time.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Harry Haller, post: 146177, member: 14641"] Many thanks to all the enlightened people who have shared in this discussion, I would like to make it quite clear though, that I am a fool. At no point would I dream of trying to say that being an atheist is better than being a sikh, however it is better for me in this current time. Allow me to explain, bankruptcy hit me hard 15 years ago, up until then I had always thought of myself as one of gods favourites, I felt I could walk on water, just so long as I kept up the magical rituals that I had observed everyone else doing, so I drank, slept around, lied, cheated, but I figured as long as I kept my turban and beard, and believed in god, I would be fine. Of course events caught up with me, and in my fall, I lost everything, now when I mean everything, I mean my ego, pride, belief, joy, in short, it felt like I had died. I kept fighting until the last possible moment, at the time, I had also a huge interest in the german author herman hesse, whose writing I found hugely inspirational, one of his books, The Steppenwolf, I found was almost like reading a blueprint to my soul, amongst other concepts was one regarding the suicides. If you know that your death is likely to be by your own hand, it gives you several strengths, not least that life becomes a lucid dream where everything is possible, as there are no consequences, together with my fasle faith in a false god (that god was not waheguru, it was a *******ised version of god i had invented in my head), this meant that I had two options on how to deal with a mess of huge proportions, one, to immerse myself in god (however given that my god validated everything that I had done, this did not seem too great an option, or go with the book. I decided to go with the book, I did not particularly want to be around to clear up the mess, given that there would also be consequences. To cut a long story short, I failed, and my failure was public, at that time, I suppose I should really had made the effort to try and find 'the true king', but I didnt, I became a husk, a walking zombie, I also realised how everything I believed in was wrong, the desire for power, the big cars, being a player, it all meant nothing, with a heavy heart, and not knowing who god was anymore, but realising that I was a very bad sikh, I cut my hair and shaved my beard, and devoted the next 15 years to trying to make a difference. I called myself an atheist, because I did not believe in god, that is not to say I did not believe in the existance of god, but I rejected any positive effect his presence may have had on me, instead I concentrated on his orders, and there were many, and I hated him for it. As far as I was concerned he did not love me anymore, and the only way back was to do his will without his love or his touching me, so I did, for a year, 2 , 3, 7, 10 years passed. Finally after 15 years, I sensed a shift, a change in something, and in January of this year something made me join this forum. God did not make me go through this, for some reason I did it to myself, a complete rejection of all things godly other than sewa. So, please bear in mind dear sangat you are having this debate with a fool, who does not quite know why he feels the way he does, but today,the thought of following the ultimate truth has excited me in a way that I have not felt excited in a long time. [/QUOTE]
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