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Composition, Arrangement & Layout
ਜਪੁ | Jup
ਸੋ ਦਰੁ | So Dar
ਸੋਹਿਲਾ | Sohilaa
ਰਾਗੁ ਸਿਰੀਰਾਗੁ | Raag Siree-Raag
Gurbani (14-53)
Ashtpadiyan (53-71)
Gurbani (71-74)
Pahre (74-78)
Chhant (78-81)
Vanjara (81-82)
Vaar Siri Raag (83-91)
Bhagat Bani (91-93)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਾਝ | Raag Maajh
Gurbani (94-109)
Ashtpadi (109)
Ashtpadiyan (110-129)
Ashtpadi (129-130)
Ashtpadiyan (130-133)
Bara Maha (133-136)
Din Raen (136-137)
Vaar Maajh Ki (137-150)
ਰਾਗੁ ਗਉੜੀ | Raag Gauree
Gurbani (151-185)
Quartets/Couplets (185-220)
Ashtpadiyan (220-234)
Karhalei (234-235)
Ashtpadiyan (235-242)
Chhant (242-249)
Baavan Akhari (250-262)
Sukhmani (262-296)
Thittee (296-300)
Gauree kii Vaar (300-323)
Gurbani (323-330)
Ashtpadiyan (330-340)
Baavan Akhari (340-343)
Thintteen (343-344)
Vaar Kabir (344-345)
Bhagat Bani (345-346)
ਰਾਗੁ ਆਸਾ | Raag Aasaa
Gurbani (347-348)
Chaupaday (348-364)
Panchpadde (364-365)
Kaafee (365-409)
Aasaavaree (409-411)
Ashtpadiyan (411-432)
Patee (432-435)
Chhant (435-462)
Vaar Aasaa (462-475)
Bhagat Bani (475-488)
ਰਾਗੁ ਗੂਜਰੀ | Raag Goojaree
Gurbani (489-503)
Ashtpadiyan (503-508)
Vaar Gujari (508-517)
Vaar Gujari (517-526)
ਰਾਗੁ ਦੇਵਗੰਧਾਰੀ | Raag Dayv-Gandhaaree
Gurbani (527-536)
ਰਾਗੁ ਬਿਹਾਗੜਾ | Raag Bihaagraa
Gurbani (537-556)
Chhant (538-548)
Vaar Bihaagraa (548-556)
ਰਾਗੁ ਵਡਹੰਸ | Raag Wadhans
Gurbani (557-564)
Ashtpadiyan (564-565)
Chhant (565-575)
Ghoriaan (575-578)
Alaahaniiaa (578-582)
Vaar Wadhans (582-594)
ਰਾਗੁ ਸੋਰਠਿ | Raag Sorath
Gurbani (595-634)
Asatpadhiya (634-642)
Vaar Sorath (642-659)
ਰਾਗੁ ਧਨਾਸਰੀ | Raag Dhanasaree
Gurbani (660-685)
Astpadhiya (685-687)
Chhant (687-691)
Bhagat Bani (691-695)
ਰਾਗੁ ਜੈਤਸਰੀ | Raag Jaitsree
Gurbani (696-703)
Chhant (703-705)
Vaar Jaitsaree (705-710)
Bhagat Bani (710)
ਰਾਗੁ ਟੋਡੀ | Raag Todee
ਰਾਗੁ ਬੈਰਾੜੀ | Raag Bairaaree
ਰਾਗੁ ਤਿਲੰਗ | Raag Tilang
Gurbani (721-727)
Bhagat Bani (727)
ਰਾਗੁ ਸੂਹੀ | Raag Suhi
Gurbani (728-750)
Ashtpadiyan (750-761)
Kaafee (761-762)
Suchajee (762)
Gunvantee (763)
Chhant (763-785)
Vaar Soohee (785-792)
Bhagat Bani (792-794)
ਰਾਗੁ ਬਿਲਾਵਲੁ | Raag Bilaaval
Gurbani (795-831)
Ashtpadiyan (831-838)
Thitteen (838-840)
Vaar Sat (841-843)
Chhant (843-848)
Vaar Bilaaval (849-855)
Bhagat Bani (855-858)
ਰਾਗੁ ਗੋਂਡ | Raag Gond
Gurbani (859-869)
Ashtpadiyan (869)
Bhagat Bani (870-875)
ਰਾਗੁ ਰਾਮਕਲੀ | Raag Ramkalee
Ashtpadiyan (902-916)
Gurbani (876-902)
Anand (917-922)
Sadd (923-924)
Chhant (924-929)
Dakhnee (929-938)
Sidh Gosat (938-946)
Vaar Ramkalee (947-968)
ਰਾਗੁ ਨਟ ਨਾਰਾਇਨ | Raag Nat Narayan
Gurbani (975-980)
Ashtpadiyan (980-983)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਾਲੀ ਗਉੜਾ | Raag Maalee Gauraa
Gurbani (984-988)
Bhagat Bani (988)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਾਰੂ | Raag Maaroo
Gurbani (889-1008)
Ashtpadiyan (1008-1014)
Kaafee (1014-1016)
Ashtpadiyan (1016-1019)
Anjulian (1019-1020)
Solhe (1020-1033)
Dakhni (1033-1043)
ਰਾਗੁ ਤੁਖਾਰੀ | Raag Tukhaari
Bara Maha (1107-1110)
Chhant (1110-1117)
ਰਾਗੁ ਕੇਦਾਰਾ | Raag Kedara
Gurbani (1118-1123)
Bhagat Bani (1123-1124)
ਰਾਗੁ ਭੈਰਉ | Raag Bhairo
Gurbani (1125-1152)
Partaal (1153)
Ashtpadiyan (1153-1167)
ਰਾਗੁ ਬਸੰਤੁ | Raag Basant
Gurbani (1168-1187)
Ashtpadiyan (1187-1193)
Vaar Basant (1193-1196)
ਰਾਗੁ ਸਾਰਗ | Raag Saarag
Gurbani (1197-1200)
Partaal (1200-1231)
Ashtpadiyan (1232-1236)
Chhant (1236-1237)
Vaar Saarang (1237-1253)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਲਾਰ | Raag Malaar
Gurbani (1254-1293)
Partaal (1265-1273)
Ashtpadiyan (1273-1278)
Chhant (1278)
Vaar Malaar (1278-91)
Bhagat Bani (1292-93)
ਰਾਗੁ ਕਾਨੜਾ | Raag Kaanraa
Gurbani (1294-96)
Partaal (1296-1318)
Ashtpadiyan (1308-1312)
Chhant (1312)
Vaar Kaanraa
Bhagat Bani (1318)
ਰਾਗੁ ਕਲਿਆਨ | Raag Kalyaan
Gurbani (1319-23)
Ashtpadiyan (1323-26)
ਰਾਗੁ ਪ੍ਰਭਾਤੀ | Raag Prabhaatee
Gurbani (1327-1341)
Ashtpadiyan (1342-51)
ਰਾਗੁ ਜੈਜਾਵੰਤੀ | Raag Jaijaiwanti
Gurbani (1352-53)
Salok | Gatha | Phunahe | Chaubole | Swayiye
Sehskritee Mahala 1
Sehskritee Mahala 5
Gaathaa Mahala 5
Phunhay Mahala 5
Chaubolae Mahala 5
Shaloks Bhagat Kabir
Shaloks Sheikh Farid
Swaiyyae Mahala 5
Swaiyyae in Praise of Gurus
Shaloks in Addition To Vaars
Shalok Ninth Mehl
Mundavanee Mehl 5
ਰਾਗ ਮਾਲਾ, Raag Maalaa
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<blockquote data-quote="Harry Haller" data-source="post: 203522" data-attributes="member: 14641"><p>well for 2 weeks, I basically just worked and howled, I howled hard, harder than a long time, by the time the 2 weeks was up, well, of course I was in a state of induced madness.</p><p></p><p>Sian mentioned that Charlie, who was old and getting older, was getting weaker, we hoped he would live to see christmas,</p><p>Sian went to see charlie, he died in her arms ten minutes later, I watched him as Sian stroked him, its all over now, she said, its time to sleep, I realised I have seen Sian say this several times now, when animals have died before, when her mother died, she looked at me, he's gone, but he's still breathing, I said, she shook her head, no, thats just gasses, I also realised that I had made this statement every death, including her mother,</p><p></p><p>the night was strange, we did not touch, or hold, I felt she blamed me, eventually, she looked at me and said this is awful, truth is, I didnt know what to do, my head was all over the place, we talked, we talked about permanently splitting up, 'then you can howl to your hearts content instead of trying to rescue someone who cannot give you anything back, because that is all I am, a project for you to save, then you can move on to your next one'</p><p></p><p>She looked at me, I looked at her, my love for her burned deep inside me, but so did the pain, the hurt, the rejection, and frankly, 20 years of drugs, booze and hard living did not help.</p><p></p><p>We stared, for a while, I started to cry, Sian doesnt cry, she is too hard for that, she wiped it away, we held each other, in the middle of the passion, I realised that it was this that was home, it was this that I needed, the love, the holding, the feeling that someone loved you as much as you loved them, we made love, after, I held her tightly, I did not want to let her go, we lay in bed, after, the familiar noise of the door downstairs opening as the puppies lifted the latch, soon the bed was full of puppies, dogs and us. I looked at her, she was beautiful, really the most beautiful thing I have ever seen in my life, Bran was on her chest, Rory was behind her head, and Dan was lying on her feet, her hand tightly squeezed mine and she closed her eyes, 'let the bone go harry' she said, just let it go, take it out from centre stage and give it a passing role, I can live with that, but this, this is what we are, and what we need. An hour later everyone was asleep, except me, I sat up and looked at the scene, I have not howled since. I have no desire to howl, I think I made the change, I think I have grown up, the Range Rover is on ebay, war is over.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Harry Haller, post: 203522, member: 14641"] well for 2 weeks, I basically just worked and howled, I howled hard, harder than a long time, by the time the 2 weeks was up, well, of course I was in a state of induced madness. Sian mentioned that Charlie, who was old and getting older, was getting weaker, we hoped he would live to see christmas, Sian went to see charlie, he died in her arms ten minutes later, I watched him as Sian stroked him, its all over now, she said, its time to sleep, I realised I have seen Sian say this several times now, when animals have died before, when her mother died, she looked at me, he's gone, but he's still breathing, I said, she shook her head, no, thats just gasses, I also realised that I had made this statement every death, including her mother, the night was strange, we did not touch, or hold, I felt she blamed me, eventually, she looked at me and said this is awful, truth is, I didnt know what to do, my head was all over the place, we talked, we talked about permanently splitting up, 'then you can howl to your hearts content instead of trying to rescue someone who cannot give you anything back, because that is all I am, a project for you to save, then you can move on to your next one' She looked at me, I looked at her, my love for her burned deep inside me, but so did the pain, the hurt, the rejection, and frankly, 20 years of drugs, booze and hard living did not help. We stared, for a while, I started to cry, Sian doesnt cry, she is too hard for that, she wiped it away, we held each other, in the middle of the passion, I realised that it was this that was home, it was this that I needed, the love, the holding, the feeling that someone loved you as much as you loved them, we made love, after, I held her tightly, I did not want to let her go, we lay in bed, after, the familiar noise of the door downstairs opening as the puppies lifted the latch, soon the bed was full of puppies, dogs and us. I looked at her, she was beautiful, really the most beautiful thing I have ever seen in my life, Bran was on her chest, Rory was behind her head, and Dan was lying on her feet, her hand tightly squeezed mine and she closed her eyes, 'let the bone go harry' she said, just let it go, take it out from centre stage and give it a passing role, I can live with that, but this, this is what we are, and what we need. An hour later everyone was asleep, except me, I sat up and looked at the scene, I have not howled since. I have no desire to howl, I think I made the change, I think I have grown up, the Range Rover is on ebay, war is over. [/QUOTE]
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