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Composition, Arrangement & Layout
ਜਪੁ | Jup
ਸੋ ਦਰੁ | So Dar
ਸੋਹਿਲਾ | Sohilaa
ਰਾਗੁ ਸਿਰੀਰਾਗੁ | Raag Siree-Raag
Gurbani (14-53)
Ashtpadiyan (53-71)
Gurbani (71-74)
Pahre (74-78)
Chhant (78-81)
Vanjara (81-82)
Vaar Siri Raag (83-91)
Bhagat Bani (91-93)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਾਝ | Raag Maajh
Gurbani (94-109)
Ashtpadi (109)
Ashtpadiyan (110-129)
Ashtpadi (129-130)
Ashtpadiyan (130-133)
Bara Maha (133-136)
Din Raen (136-137)
Vaar Maajh Ki (137-150)
ਰਾਗੁ ਗਉੜੀ | Raag Gauree
Gurbani (151-185)
Quartets/Couplets (185-220)
Ashtpadiyan (220-234)
Karhalei (234-235)
Ashtpadiyan (235-242)
Chhant (242-249)
Baavan Akhari (250-262)
Sukhmani (262-296)
Thittee (296-300)
Gauree kii Vaar (300-323)
Gurbani (323-330)
Ashtpadiyan (330-340)
Baavan Akhari (340-343)
Thintteen (343-344)
Vaar Kabir (344-345)
Bhagat Bani (345-346)
ਰਾਗੁ ਆਸਾ | Raag Aasaa
Gurbani (347-348)
Chaupaday (348-364)
Panchpadde (364-365)
Kaafee (365-409)
Aasaavaree (409-411)
Ashtpadiyan (411-432)
Patee (432-435)
Chhant (435-462)
Vaar Aasaa (462-475)
Bhagat Bani (475-488)
ਰਾਗੁ ਗੂਜਰੀ | Raag Goojaree
Gurbani (489-503)
Ashtpadiyan (503-508)
Vaar Gujari (508-517)
Vaar Gujari (517-526)
ਰਾਗੁ ਦੇਵਗੰਧਾਰੀ | Raag Dayv-Gandhaaree
Gurbani (527-536)
ਰਾਗੁ ਬਿਹਾਗੜਾ | Raag Bihaagraa
Gurbani (537-556)
Chhant (538-548)
Vaar Bihaagraa (548-556)
ਰਾਗੁ ਵਡਹੰਸ | Raag Wadhans
Gurbani (557-564)
Ashtpadiyan (564-565)
Chhant (565-575)
Ghoriaan (575-578)
Alaahaniiaa (578-582)
Vaar Wadhans (582-594)
ਰਾਗੁ ਸੋਰਠਿ | Raag Sorath
Gurbani (595-634)
Asatpadhiya (634-642)
Vaar Sorath (642-659)
ਰਾਗੁ ਧਨਾਸਰੀ | Raag Dhanasaree
Gurbani (660-685)
Astpadhiya (685-687)
Chhant (687-691)
Bhagat Bani (691-695)
ਰਾਗੁ ਜੈਤਸਰੀ | Raag Jaitsree
Gurbani (696-703)
Chhant (703-705)
Vaar Jaitsaree (705-710)
Bhagat Bani (710)
ਰਾਗੁ ਟੋਡੀ | Raag Todee
ਰਾਗੁ ਬੈਰਾੜੀ | Raag Bairaaree
ਰਾਗੁ ਤਿਲੰਗ | Raag Tilang
Gurbani (721-727)
Bhagat Bani (727)
ਰਾਗੁ ਸੂਹੀ | Raag Suhi
Gurbani (728-750)
Ashtpadiyan (750-761)
Kaafee (761-762)
Suchajee (762)
Gunvantee (763)
Chhant (763-785)
Vaar Soohee (785-792)
Bhagat Bani (792-794)
ਰਾਗੁ ਬਿਲਾਵਲੁ | Raag Bilaaval
Gurbani (795-831)
Ashtpadiyan (831-838)
Thitteen (838-840)
Vaar Sat (841-843)
Chhant (843-848)
Vaar Bilaaval (849-855)
Bhagat Bani (855-858)
ਰਾਗੁ ਗੋਂਡ | Raag Gond
Gurbani (859-869)
Ashtpadiyan (869)
Bhagat Bani (870-875)
ਰਾਗੁ ਰਾਮਕਲੀ | Raag Ramkalee
Ashtpadiyan (902-916)
Gurbani (876-902)
Anand (917-922)
Sadd (923-924)
Chhant (924-929)
Dakhnee (929-938)
Sidh Gosat (938-946)
Vaar Ramkalee (947-968)
ਰਾਗੁ ਨਟ ਨਾਰਾਇਨ | Raag Nat Narayan
Gurbani (975-980)
Ashtpadiyan (980-983)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਾਲੀ ਗਉੜਾ | Raag Maalee Gauraa
Gurbani (984-988)
Bhagat Bani (988)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਾਰੂ | Raag Maaroo
Gurbani (889-1008)
Ashtpadiyan (1008-1014)
Kaafee (1014-1016)
Ashtpadiyan (1016-1019)
Anjulian (1019-1020)
Solhe (1020-1033)
Dakhni (1033-1043)
ਰਾਗੁ ਤੁਖਾਰੀ | Raag Tukhaari
Bara Maha (1107-1110)
Chhant (1110-1117)
ਰਾਗੁ ਕੇਦਾਰਾ | Raag Kedara
Gurbani (1118-1123)
Bhagat Bani (1123-1124)
ਰਾਗੁ ਭੈਰਉ | Raag Bhairo
Gurbani (1125-1152)
Partaal (1153)
Ashtpadiyan (1153-1167)
ਰਾਗੁ ਬਸੰਤੁ | Raag Basant
Gurbani (1168-1187)
Ashtpadiyan (1187-1193)
Vaar Basant (1193-1196)
ਰਾਗੁ ਸਾਰਗ | Raag Saarag
Gurbani (1197-1200)
Partaal (1200-1231)
Ashtpadiyan (1232-1236)
Chhant (1236-1237)
Vaar Saarang (1237-1253)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਲਾਰ | Raag Malaar
Gurbani (1254-1293)
Partaal (1265-1273)
Ashtpadiyan (1273-1278)
Chhant (1278)
Vaar Malaar (1278-91)
Bhagat Bani (1292-93)
ਰਾਗੁ ਕਾਨੜਾ | Raag Kaanraa
Gurbani (1294-96)
Partaal (1296-1318)
Ashtpadiyan (1308-1312)
Chhant (1312)
Vaar Kaanraa
Bhagat Bani (1318)
ਰਾਗੁ ਕਲਿਆਨ | Raag Kalyaan
Gurbani (1319-23)
Ashtpadiyan (1323-26)
ਰਾਗੁ ਪ੍ਰਭਾਤੀ | Raag Prabhaatee
Gurbani (1327-1341)
Ashtpadiyan (1342-51)
ਰਾਗੁ ਜੈਜਾਵੰਤੀ | Raag Jaijaiwanti
Gurbani (1352-53)
Salok | Gatha | Phunahe | Chaubole | Swayiye
Sehskritee Mahala 1
Sehskritee Mahala 5
Gaathaa Mahala 5
Phunhay Mahala 5
Chaubolae Mahala 5
Shaloks Bhagat Kabir
Shaloks Sheikh Farid
Swaiyyae Mahala 5
Swaiyyae in Praise of Gurus
Shaloks in Addition To Vaars
Shalok Ninth Mehl
Mundavanee Mehl 5
ਰਾਗ ਮਾਲਾ, Raag Maalaa
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<blockquote data-quote="Harry Haller" data-source="post: 207306" data-attributes="member: 14641"><p>I'm bitter, bitterness is not good, I am also very suspicious, this is also not good, I wonder if is possible to knock down the walls that are being raised, to go back to innocence, to purity, to the self, but how can it be, for there is no innocence, no purity, and no self, once you emerge from the womb, the world is tainting you, taking away your innocence, your purity and ultimately your very self. Who am I? Am I that man? Am I that man pretending to be a different man? Could I be that man pretending to be another man, whilst pretending to be yet another? I think it must be universally agreed that to be completely open and true is a route to self destruction, unless, unless, well, unless you have no negative aspects of your character that need to be kept hidden, but for that to happen, one would have to be pure, ah yes, if one was pure, and wise, then one could be open, and there would be no negative consequences to the self, the self would then only serve to raise others, to set an example, sounds great, but its not me, I can set a good example in panga, Well, I am pretty sure I did not go through all this just to be a consumer, so why did I go through all this, to prove my invincibility? maybe, to prove that one can give till one is completely empty, and there are no consequences, I suppose there are no consequences, I jump from state to state, cold as ice one moment, and then the next, yearning for the smell, the touch of intimate contact, yearning to the point where your heart actually hurts, and cold to the point where the heavens crashing down would not change anything, I exist somewhere in between, I don't feel lonely, I am not sure what I feel, but not lonely, I am certainly not hungry, I am certainly not yearning for company, human or animal, I don't feel like I want for anything, I remember only a few years ago how a rusty old range rover would brighten me hugely, or an old V12 7 series, a daimler double six, but now these things are largely irrelevant, I wonder why, am I dead? I have just had an indian take away, raw onion, daal, 3 rotis, what sort of person orders that from a take away other than a vegetarian, I could be anything I wish to be, play mental games and polish up my character, be, for want of a better word, normal, operate as 'they' do, play games as 'they' play, maybe buy a box set of something, (what the hell is a box set anyway?) , I am getting tired, its been a long day, I am sure if I took a trip to my brain I would find layers and layers of switches all set to off, that is how I feel, like a windows setup with most of the registry missing, I am pretty sure we are all the same underneath, I think people are different because of what they choose to share with others, or what to embellish, what to hide, how they come across, a combination of deceit, lies, ego and pride, no I do not fancy going down that road, if I go up there, and flick all those switches to on, I wonder what would happen, madness maybe, the temptation to really go for it, to really see the depths of whatever madness I can muster is tempting, but the truth is, I do not think my body could probably handle it, nor my mind to be fair, the only option seems to be to mask as much as possible until the bitterness passes, this means zombieing out for a while, there is much to do practically, yes, zombieing out sounds like a capital idea, climatise to the present day, to the order of the day, say as little as possible, absorb as much as possible, till what? till I heal I guess. Yes, I think I will heal, only because it is herd mentality not to heal, to grow cold, to build walls, to change, no, I will not change, I can be more wise for sure, but I can stay me, just need to lick a few wounds, like it never happened, could that be possible, could it be like it never happened, no, something inside tells me it could be better than that, I just need to keep my wits about me</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Harry Haller, post: 207306, member: 14641"] I'm bitter, bitterness is not good, I am also very suspicious, this is also not good, I wonder if is possible to knock down the walls that are being raised, to go back to innocence, to purity, to the self, but how can it be, for there is no innocence, no purity, and no self, once you emerge from the womb, the world is tainting you, taking away your innocence, your purity and ultimately your very self. Who am I? Am I that man? Am I that man pretending to be a different man? Could I be that man pretending to be another man, whilst pretending to be yet another? I think it must be universally agreed that to be completely open and true is a route to self destruction, unless, unless, well, unless you have no negative aspects of your character that need to be kept hidden, but for that to happen, one would have to be pure, ah yes, if one was pure, and wise, then one could be open, and there would be no negative consequences to the self, the self would then only serve to raise others, to set an example, sounds great, but its not me, I can set a good example in panga, Well, I am pretty sure I did not go through all this just to be a consumer, so why did I go through all this, to prove my invincibility? maybe, to prove that one can give till one is completely empty, and there are no consequences, I suppose there are no consequences, I jump from state to state, cold as ice one moment, and then the next, yearning for the smell, the touch of intimate contact, yearning to the point where your heart actually hurts, and cold to the point where the heavens crashing down would not change anything, I exist somewhere in between, I don't feel lonely, I am not sure what I feel, but not lonely, I am certainly not hungry, I am certainly not yearning for company, human or animal, I don't feel like I want for anything, I remember only a few years ago how a rusty old range rover would brighten me hugely, or an old V12 7 series, a daimler double six, but now these things are largely irrelevant, I wonder why, am I dead? I have just had an indian take away, raw onion, daal, 3 rotis, what sort of person orders that from a take away other than a vegetarian, I could be anything I wish to be, play mental games and polish up my character, be, for want of a better word, normal, operate as 'they' do, play games as 'they' play, maybe buy a box set of something, (what the hell is a box set anyway?) , I am getting tired, its been a long day, I am sure if I took a trip to my brain I would find layers and layers of switches all set to off, that is how I feel, like a windows setup with most of the registry missing, I am pretty sure we are all the same underneath, I think people are different because of what they choose to share with others, or what to embellish, what to hide, how they come across, a combination of deceit, lies, ego and pride, no I do not fancy going down that road, if I go up there, and flick all those switches to on, I wonder what would happen, madness maybe, the temptation to really go for it, to really see the depths of whatever madness I can muster is tempting, but the truth is, I do not think my body could probably handle it, nor my mind to be fair, the only option seems to be to mask as much as possible until the bitterness passes, this means zombieing out for a while, there is much to do practically, yes, zombieing out sounds like a capital idea, climatise to the present day, to the order of the day, say as little as possible, absorb as much as possible, till what? till I heal I guess. Yes, I think I will heal, only because it is herd mentality not to heal, to grow cold, to build walls, to change, no, I will not change, I can be more wise for sure, but I can stay me, just need to lick a few wounds, like it never happened, could that be possible, could it be like it never happened, no, something inside tells me it could be better than that, I just need to keep my wits about me [/QUOTE]
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