WJKK WJKF! I am a final year uni student who plans to do a Phd in engineering (yes I know what a fool!). I am not yet an amritdhari sikh but really want to become one but first I believe I need to become pure by removing my 5 evils before giving my head to the Guru. I do not feel right about going to my Guru with evils still trapped inside me. I try to get up in the amritvela time because I know that this is the only time when His Sikhs arise to pray when everyone is asleep. But i find it really hard, my work is a lot and when my alarm goes off around 3am I just turn it off! I really want to become a sikh but my work and my 5 evils are taking control over me. I cannot really just quit my work because the western part of the world is designed with this in it. I know there are sikhs out there who are Gursikhs and are very well educated so I know that I can become a pure sikh whilst still learning. I do know that then i will not become fully detached, which is my ultimate dream, and one with the Guru until I give up this western ideal. But becoming a Sikh is a start to becoming detached. Waheguru! Also even when I get up in the morning, once in a blue-moon, I do not do ishnaan since I do not wish to disturb the rest of the family who are asleep - which i know again is stupid! Wheres my will and confidence you ask? Stolen by the evils. How do you get it back? I feel that because of my work my computer has become my third arm! But again I know i cannot just give up work. Any suggestions? WJKK WJKF!