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<blockquote data-quote="Seeker2013" data-source="post: 208369" data-attributes="member: 19755"><p><em><span style="font-family: 'Book Antiqua'"><strong><span style="font-size: 22px"><span style="font-size: 26px">"</span>We stopped checking for monsters under our beds when we realized they were inside us<span style="font-size: 26px">"</span></span></strong></span></em><span style="font-family: 'Book Antiqua'"><strong> -Charles Darwin</strong></span></p><p><span style="font-family: 'Book Antiqua'"></span></p><p><span style="font-family: 'Arial'"><strong>I used to think it was just one of those non-sense quotes but then I realized its actually true.</strong></span></p><p><span style="font-family: 'Arial'"></span></p><p><span style="font-family: 'Arial'"><strong>My parents say I don't care any for myself. I am starting to have an aged look on my face even though I am just 26. They say I don't care for my health. I feel like I am not able to focus on anything.</strong></span></p><p><span style="font-family: 'Arial'"></span></p><p><span style="font-family: 'Arial'">[ATTACH=full]19946[/ATTACH] </span></p><p><span style="font-family: 'Arial'"></span></p><p><span style="font-family: 'Arial'"><strong>Despite having blessings in my life, I seem only fixated on my sexuality.</strong></span></p><p><span style="font-family: 'Arial'"></span></p><p><span style="font-family: 'Arial'"><strong>Its as if I have become a kind of living dead. I don't know what I am going to do . I just know I cope off my stress by masturbating(M) (sorry for lack of a better word). </strong></span></p><p><span style="font-family: 'Arial'"></span></p><p><span style="font-family: 'Arial'"><strong>I so desperately want to quit . I want to live a wholesome life. I want to socialize and hang out with people. I am beginning to do it , but at the same time, the demons inside me won't let me.</strong></span></p><p><span style="font-family: 'Arial'"></span></p><p><span style="font-family: 'Arial'"><strong>I don't know whether I should be saying this here but I say this only because someone might offer some help. It seems like some have addiction to drinking, smoking, drugs. I hate all 3 but I have addiction to the M word I mentioned earlier. and (again don't know if I should be saying this here), but I have my own fantasies, harmless ones . You can say its a cloth (no I don't cross-dress) , I wear it, jerk off and then I hide it away. To much of my embarrassment, my mom once found it .</strong></span></p><p><span style="font-family: 'Arial'"></span></p><p><span style="font-family: 'Arial'"><strong>I promise this is the last time I do it but then soon (maybe a couple of days later), I found myself doing it again.</strong></span></p><p><span style="font-family: 'Arial'"></span></p><p><span style="font-family: 'Arial'"><strong>I really want to quit this off. I want a healthier way of coping with my sexuality (I am gay), but it seems like I am from inside a weakened man with a feeble mind . I have a hard time resisting my M urge and my silly (and mildly perverted) fantasies . </strong></span></p><p><span style="font-family: 'Arial'"></span></p><p><span style="font-family: 'Arial'"><strong>I feel guilty after doing it and despite all attempts, the most I could do without it is some 4 days. </strong></span></p><p><span style="font-family: 'Arial'"></span></p><p><span style="font-family: 'Arial'"><strong>I want to jogging, gyming and become a young man with young soul again.</strong></span></p><p><span style="font-family: 'Arial'"></span></p><p><span style="font-family: 'Arial'"><strong>I feel like I am not living. Its a mild kind of addiction I think or maybe its serious. I don't know but one thing I DO KNOW . I am not able to get out of it by myself and don't know whom to talk to .</strong></span></p><p><span style="font-family: 'Arial'"></span></p><p><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial'">EDIT -- </span></strong></p><p><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial'">I am convinced if there's a satan, its inside of us. Its the unhealthy temptations (habitual masturbation, drinking, smoking, drugs, gambling, etc ) that whispers in our mind and we in our impotent rages are unable to do anything concrete against it .</span></strong></p><p><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial'"></span></strong></p><p><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial'">Self-control and resisting temptations only work for so long ! eventually , the devil will get you . Whats the way ? only a habit can kill a habit I </span></strong></p><p><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial'">I guess I have to make good ones. Its not easy though . Share your inputs</span></strong></p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Seeker2013, post: 208369, member: 19755"] [I][FONT=Book Antiqua][B][SIZE=6][SIZE=7]"[/SIZE]We stopped checking for monsters under our beds when we realized they were inside us[SIZE=7]"[/SIZE][/SIZE][/B][/FONT][/I][FONT=Book Antiqua][B] -Charles Darwin[/B] [/FONT] [FONT=Arial][B]I used to think it was just one of those non-sense quotes but then I realized its actually true.[/B] [B]My parents say I don't care any for myself. I am starting to have an aged look on my face even though I am just 26. They say I don't care for my health. I feel like I am not able to focus on anything.[/B] [ATTACH=full]19946[/ATTACH] [B]Despite having blessings in my life, I seem only fixated on my sexuality.[/B] [B]Its as if I have become a kind of living dead. I don't know what I am going to do . I just know I cope off my stress by masturbating(M) (sorry for lack of a better word). [/B] [B]I so desperately want to quit . I want to live a wholesome life. I want to socialize and hang out with people. I am beginning to do it , but at the same time, the demons inside me won't let me.[/B] [B]I don't know whether I should be saying this here but I say this only because someone might offer some help. It seems like some have addiction to drinking, smoking, drugs. I hate all 3 but I have addiction to the M word I mentioned earlier. and (again don't know if I should be saying this here), but I have my own fantasies, harmless ones . You can say its a cloth (no I don't cross-dress) , I wear it, jerk off and then I hide it away. To much of my embarrassment, my mom once found it .[/B] [B]I promise this is the last time I do it but then soon (maybe a couple of days later), I found myself doing it again.[/B] [B]I really want to quit this off. I want a healthier way of coping with my sexuality (I am gay), but it seems like I am from inside a weakened man with a feeble mind . I have a hard time resisting my M urge and my silly (and mildly perverted) fantasies . [/B] [B]I feel guilty after doing it and despite all attempts, the most I could do without it is some 4 days. [/B] [B]I want to jogging, gyming and become a young man with young soul again.[/B] [B]I feel like I am not living. Its a mild kind of addiction I think or maybe its serious. I don't know but one thing I DO KNOW . I am not able to get out of it by myself and don't know whom to talk to .[/B] [/FONT] [B][FONT=Arial]EDIT -- I am convinced if there's a satan, its inside of us. Its the unhealthy temptations (habitual masturbation, drinking, smoking, drugs, gambling, etc ) that whispers in our mind and we in our impotent rages are unable to do anything concrete against it . Self-control and resisting temptations only work for so long ! eventually , the devil will get you . Whats the way ? only a habit can kill a habit I I guess I have to make good ones. Its not easy though . Share your inputs[/FONT][/B] [/QUOTE]
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