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ਜਪੁ | Jup
ਸੋ ਦਰੁ | So Dar
ਸੋਹਿਲਾ | Sohilaa
ਰਾਗੁ ਸਿਰੀਰਾਗੁ | Raag Siree-Raag
Gurbani (14-53)
Ashtpadiyan (53-71)
Gurbani (71-74)
Pahre (74-78)
Chhant (78-81)
Vanjara (81-82)
Vaar Siri Raag (83-91)
Bhagat Bani (91-93)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਾਝ | Raag Maajh
Gurbani (94-109)
Ashtpadi (109)
Ashtpadiyan (110-129)
Ashtpadi (129-130)
Ashtpadiyan (130-133)
Bara Maha (133-136)
Din Raen (136-137)
Vaar Maajh Ki (137-150)
ਰਾਗੁ ਗਉੜੀ | Raag Gauree
Gurbani (151-185)
Quartets/Couplets (185-220)
Ashtpadiyan (220-234)
Karhalei (234-235)
Ashtpadiyan (235-242)
Chhant (242-249)
Baavan Akhari (250-262)
Sukhmani (262-296)
Thittee (296-300)
Gauree kii Vaar (300-323)
Gurbani (323-330)
Ashtpadiyan (330-340)
Baavan Akhari (340-343)
Thintteen (343-344)
Vaar Kabir (344-345)
Bhagat Bani (345-346)
ਰਾਗੁ ਆਸਾ | Raag Aasaa
Gurbani (347-348)
Chaupaday (348-364)
Panchpadde (364-365)
Kaafee (365-409)
Aasaavaree (409-411)
Ashtpadiyan (411-432)
Patee (432-435)
Chhant (435-462)
Vaar Aasaa (462-475)
Bhagat Bani (475-488)
ਰਾਗੁ ਗੂਜਰੀ | Raag Goojaree
Gurbani (489-503)
Ashtpadiyan (503-508)
Vaar Gujari (508-517)
Vaar Gujari (517-526)
ਰਾਗੁ ਦੇਵਗੰਧਾਰੀ | Raag Dayv-Gandhaaree
Gurbani (527-536)
ਰਾਗੁ ਬਿਹਾਗੜਾ | Raag Bihaagraa
Gurbani (537-556)
Chhant (538-548)
Vaar Bihaagraa (548-556)
ਰਾਗੁ ਵਡਹੰਸ | Raag Wadhans
Gurbani (557-564)
Ashtpadiyan (564-565)
Chhant (565-575)
Ghoriaan (575-578)
Alaahaniiaa (578-582)
Vaar Wadhans (582-594)
ਰਾਗੁ ਸੋਰਠਿ | Raag Sorath
Gurbani (595-634)
Asatpadhiya (634-642)
Vaar Sorath (642-659)
ਰਾਗੁ ਧਨਾਸਰੀ | Raag Dhanasaree
Gurbani (660-685)
Astpadhiya (685-687)
Chhant (687-691)
Bhagat Bani (691-695)
ਰਾਗੁ ਜੈਤਸਰੀ | Raag Jaitsree
Gurbani (696-703)
Chhant (703-705)
Vaar Jaitsaree (705-710)
Bhagat Bani (710)
ਰਾਗੁ ਟੋਡੀ | Raag Todee
ਰਾਗੁ ਬੈਰਾੜੀ | Raag Bairaaree
ਰਾਗੁ ਤਿਲੰਗ | Raag Tilang
Gurbani (721-727)
Bhagat Bani (727)
ਰਾਗੁ ਸੂਹੀ | Raag Suhi
Gurbani (728-750)
Ashtpadiyan (750-761)
Kaafee (761-762)
Suchajee (762)
Gunvantee (763)
Chhant (763-785)
Vaar Soohee (785-792)
Bhagat Bani (792-794)
ਰਾਗੁ ਬਿਲਾਵਲੁ | Raag Bilaaval
Gurbani (795-831)
Ashtpadiyan (831-838)
Thitteen (838-840)
Vaar Sat (841-843)
Chhant (843-848)
Vaar Bilaaval (849-855)
Bhagat Bani (855-858)
ਰਾਗੁ ਗੋਂਡ | Raag Gond
Gurbani (859-869)
Ashtpadiyan (869)
Bhagat Bani (870-875)
ਰਾਗੁ ਰਾਮਕਲੀ | Raag Ramkalee
Ashtpadiyan (902-916)
Gurbani (876-902)
Anand (917-922)
Sadd (923-924)
Chhant (924-929)
Dakhnee (929-938)
Sidh Gosat (938-946)
Vaar Ramkalee (947-968)
ਰਾਗੁ ਨਟ ਨਾਰਾਇਨ | Raag Nat Narayan
Gurbani (975-980)
Ashtpadiyan (980-983)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਾਲੀ ਗਉੜਾ | Raag Maalee Gauraa
Gurbani (984-988)
Bhagat Bani (988)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਾਰੂ | Raag Maaroo
Gurbani (889-1008)
Ashtpadiyan (1008-1014)
Kaafee (1014-1016)
Ashtpadiyan (1016-1019)
Anjulian (1019-1020)
Solhe (1020-1033)
Dakhni (1033-1043)
ਰਾਗੁ ਤੁਖਾਰੀ | Raag Tukhaari
Bara Maha (1107-1110)
Chhant (1110-1117)
ਰਾਗੁ ਕੇਦਾਰਾ | Raag Kedara
Gurbani (1118-1123)
Bhagat Bani (1123-1124)
ਰਾਗੁ ਭੈਰਉ | Raag Bhairo
Gurbani (1125-1152)
Partaal (1153)
Ashtpadiyan (1153-1167)
ਰਾਗੁ ਬਸੰਤੁ | Raag Basant
Gurbani (1168-1187)
Ashtpadiyan (1187-1193)
Vaar Basant (1193-1196)
ਰਾਗੁ ਸਾਰਗ | Raag Saarag
Gurbani (1197-1200)
Partaal (1200-1231)
Ashtpadiyan (1232-1236)
Chhant (1236-1237)
Vaar Saarang (1237-1253)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਲਾਰ | Raag Malaar
Gurbani (1254-1293)
Partaal (1265-1273)
Ashtpadiyan (1273-1278)
Chhant (1278)
Vaar Malaar (1278-91)
Bhagat Bani (1292-93)
ਰਾਗੁ ਕਾਨੜਾ | Raag Kaanraa
Gurbani (1294-96)
Partaal (1296-1318)
Ashtpadiyan (1308-1312)
Chhant (1312)
Vaar Kaanraa
Bhagat Bani (1318)
ਰਾਗੁ ਕਲਿਆਨ | Raag Kalyaan
Gurbani (1319-23)
Ashtpadiyan (1323-26)
ਰਾਗੁ ਪ੍ਰਭਾਤੀ | Raag Prabhaatee
Gurbani (1327-1341)
Ashtpadiyan (1342-51)
ਰਾਗੁ ਜੈਜਾਵੰਤੀ | Raag Jaijaiwanti
Gurbani (1352-53)
Salok | Gatha | Phunahe | Chaubole | Swayiye
Sehskritee Mahala 1
Sehskritee Mahala 5
Gaathaa Mahala 5
Phunhay Mahala 5
Chaubolae Mahala 5
Shaloks Bhagat Kabir
Shaloks Sheikh Farid
Swaiyyae Mahala 5
Swaiyyae in Praise of Gurus
Shaloks in Addition To Vaars
Shalok Ninth Mehl
Mundavanee Mehl 5
ਰਾਗ ਮਾਲਾ, Raag Maalaa
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<blockquote data-quote="Harry Haller" data-source="post: 185669" data-attributes="member: 14641"><p>Adminbigsisji, </p><p> </p><p></p><p> </p><p>I am having severe difficulty embracing this, and at 4 o clock this morning, I realised why. Sure, I have been through the mill like many of us here, but there is one difference between my lives and many others..</p><p> </p><p>I bear a small scar on my chest, it is where I smashed into a steering wheel in a car accident, only it was not an accident. Drunk to the point of passing out, I decided it would be a good idea to drive the car into the house at 2am. </p><p> </p><p>I have had three heart attacks, the first one was in a hotel room, surrounded by various substances, with a lady of the night, the second, similarly, you get the picture. </p><p> </p><p>I have been bankrupted twice, due to the several hundred thousand wagered at London Casinos, </p><p> </p><p>Yet, when I read the stories of others, the pain they have gone through, the life they have had, the challanges, it is not due to Panga, it is not due to the self, it is due to circumstances, bad luck, call it what you will. </p><p> </p><p>Lying in my bed, at 4am, I suddenly realised that nothing bad has ever happened to me out of the blue, nothing, I have vivid memories of voices, thoughhts, warning me, trying to hold me back, but my will was too strong, too determined, that, I think puts me in a very different place to someone who has lost a child at birth, or been hit by a truck, I have absolutely no concept of acceptance, how could I? When bad things happen, I look back and think, wish I had not done that, in fact, given the charmed life I have led, if I had never done any of those things, and found Sikhism at say, 20, where would I be now, healthy, settled, happy. </p><p> </p><p>I have never had to deal with a problem and find strength to deal with it without knowing that it came from my own hand, to some extent that makes me a spoilt brat</p><p> </p><p></p><p> </p><p>But surely we are, I cannot in a million years fathom what it feels like to lose a child, my needs from Sikhism cannot be the same as someone that has no arms, or a starving child in Africa, my needs are so petty and irrelevant in the big scheme of things, they centre around leading a clean life and staying away from Panga, yet, to a starving mother in Africa who cannot feed her baby, these must seem like the most pointless and stupid facets to worry about, I agree it is not about near and far, but I think we all seek what we need from Sikhi, and I feel I need to state, I have no idea about the concept of acceptance, and as you have quoted a shabad which is, on the whole, about acceptance, that is why I have difficulty understanding, and possibly why my meaning of the word Hukam is off target. </p><p> </p><p>I would like to reopen a thread on the subject, I think Hukam is one of the most misunderstood concepts in Sikhism, I feel my efforts have no bearing other than my own personal experiences, and if we all contribute and post shabads, maybe we can all learn something. </p><p> </p><p>P.S. the screaming, as I sat in my car, facing the drive, something inside me screamed not to turn the ignition, I laughed, and turned the ignition, then something screamed not to put it into drive, I laughed and put it into drive, finally, something screamed not to floor it, I paused, did my best madman laugh, and the next thing I knew, I was in my kitchen. If some people come from good, and the bad screams at them, I can understand that, I can even envy it, but that is not my experience, it is the bad that dominates me, dominated me, not the good, the good is so small, so tiny, it has to scream to be heard</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Harry Haller, post: 185669, member: 14641"] Adminbigsisji, I am having severe difficulty embracing this, and at 4 o clock this morning, I realised why. Sure, I have been through the mill like many of us here, but there is one difference between my lives and many others.. I bear a small scar on my chest, it is where I smashed into a steering wheel in a car accident, only it was not an accident. Drunk to the point of passing out, I decided it would be a good idea to drive the car into the house at 2am. I have had three heart attacks, the first one was in a hotel room, surrounded by various substances, with a lady of the night, the second, similarly, you get the picture. I have been bankrupted twice, due to the several hundred thousand wagered at London Casinos, Yet, when I read the stories of others, the pain they have gone through, the life they have had, the challanges, it is not due to Panga, it is not due to the self, it is due to circumstances, bad luck, call it what you will. Lying in my bed, at 4am, I suddenly realised that nothing bad has ever happened to me out of the blue, nothing, I have vivid memories of voices, thoughhts, warning me, trying to hold me back, but my will was too strong, too determined, that, I think puts me in a very different place to someone who has lost a child at birth, or been hit by a truck, I have absolutely no concept of acceptance, how could I? When bad things happen, I look back and think, wish I had not done that, in fact, given the charmed life I have led, if I had never done any of those things, and found Sikhism at say, 20, where would I be now, healthy, settled, happy. I have never had to deal with a problem and find strength to deal with it without knowing that it came from my own hand, to some extent that makes me a spoilt brat But surely we are, I cannot in a million years fathom what it feels like to lose a child, my needs from Sikhism cannot be the same as someone that has no arms, or a starving child in Africa, my needs are so petty and irrelevant in the big scheme of things, they centre around leading a clean life and staying away from Panga, yet, to a starving mother in Africa who cannot feed her baby, these must seem like the most pointless and stupid facets to worry about, I agree it is not about near and far, but I think we all seek what we need from Sikhi, and I feel I need to state, I have no idea about the concept of acceptance, and as you have quoted a shabad which is, on the whole, about acceptance, that is why I have difficulty understanding, and possibly why my meaning of the word Hukam is off target. I would like to reopen a thread on the subject, I think Hukam is one of the most misunderstood concepts in Sikhism, I feel my efforts have no bearing other than my own personal experiences, and if we all contribute and post shabads, maybe we can all learn something. P.S. the screaming, as I sat in my car, facing the drive, something inside me screamed not to turn the ignition, I laughed, and turned the ignition, then something screamed not to put it into drive, I laughed and put it into drive, finally, something screamed not to floor it, I paused, did my best madman laugh, and the next thing I knew, I was in my kitchen. If some people come from good, and the bad screams at them, I can understand that, I can even envy it, but that is not my experience, it is the bad that dominates me, dominated me, not the good, the good is so small, so tiny, it has to scream to be heard [/QUOTE]
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