It was early morning today . Dad and mom were going out to buy new footwear for mom . I didn't want to go but thought I might as well go with them to bring 2 new shirts for myself , after all a professional should have a bright, plain white shirt. We went , we enjoyed, had eat-out at a restaurant with mom and dad, bought 2 new branded shirts worth Rupees 1800 each . Then felt I should have matching pagg with each . So bought those as well. But still despite so much joy, I came back home anxious, worry-ridden and a hundred troubling questions racing inside my head I wondered who will be there for me to eat with me at eat-outs when my parent have passed away ( in 5, 10 , 15 or 20 years maybe !) . With no siblings, I will be all alone . And what about the crisp white shirt that makes a man look handsome . Despite wearing it, I am insecure and restless in my mind as society looks down and ridicule men like me as an 'not-men'(just because I happen to like other men and can't help it) . What good are these eat-outs and these good clothes when they bring so much anxiety to mind because they are so temporary and fleeting. I feel so anxious. where is the everlasting peace ?