Guru di beti
SPNer
- Jan 30, 2007
- 6
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Sat Sri Akal
i'm 25, getting married soon. It's a love marriage. I have been with this guy for 7 years, and it took me awhile to get my dad to say yes to this relationship. Reason why my dad was agianst it in the first place was because he was a different cast. Same religion, but different cast. My family isnt Gursikh, but we keep our 'Kasri' (Turban) and believe in it. and my Fiance, is a cut-sard (he cuts his hair). So for my dad, it was hard to accept a guy who cuts his hair, and who is a different cast.
My question now is, our love marriages wrong in our religion? We are getting amrried now, with everyone being happy about it, but for some reason i have that fear within. I use to be very much involved in my religion. I was aginst cutting hair, i use to do 'patth' every day, i use to go to the gurudwara every day. but now, I can't even think about wearing a 'Karra'. Everytime i try to go near Gurus, somthing just pushes me away. I have this guilt that it may be because I am marrying someone who isn't much of a religious type.
I love this guy, and i love my God. and i cant seem to please none of them becasue i myself am confused now.
Please fogive me if i said something which seems wrong, but i cant think straight. MArriage is suppse to be a very important and happy moment, but for me, its a fear. fear of losing my freedom. fear of not being able to be myself. and i feel this way because i am not faithful to my God. But everytime i try, my heart isn't there. I go to the gurudwara, but my mind is somewhere else.
i dont knwo what happening! i was hoping someone can guide me...
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i'm 25, getting married soon. It's a love marriage. I have been with this guy for 7 years, and it took me awhile to get my dad to say yes to this relationship. Reason why my dad was agianst it in the first place was because he was a different cast. Same religion, but different cast. My family isnt Gursikh, but we keep our 'Kasri' (Turban) and believe in it. and my Fiance, is a cut-sard (he cuts his hair). So for my dad, it was hard to accept a guy who cuts his hair, and who is a different cast.
My question now is, our love marriages wrong in our religion? We are getting amrried now, with everyone being happy about it, but for some reason i have that fear within. I use to be very much involved in my religion. I was aginst cutting hair, i use to do 'patth' every day, i use to go to the gurudwara every day. but now, I can't even think about wearing a 'Karra'. Everytime i try to go near Gurus, somthing just pushes me away. I have this guilt that it may be because I am marrying someone who isn't much of a religious type.
I love this guy, and i love my God. and i cant seem to please none of them becasue i myself am confused now.
Please fogive me if i said something which seems wrong, but i cant think straight. MArriage is suppse to be a very important and happy moment, but for me, its a fear. fear of losing my freedom. fear of not being able to be myself. and i feel this way because i am not faithful to my God. But everytime i try, my heart isn't there. I go to the gurudwara, but my mind is somewhere else.
i dont knwo what happening! i was hoping someone can guide me...
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