Today is my birthday, it has been a good day, lots of work, and the best bit is that I have spent most of the day in Naam. It is a good connection today, I feel at peace, observing Hukam is certainly the best idea I have ever had with a view to gaining some sort of perspective on life.

Both my mother and brother seem surprised that I have decided to spend the day alone, I have convinced my wife to go see a film with my stepson, and am quite happy at the moment rebuilding an old IBM...

Well has been a week or so, and I have attempted to reside within Hukam as best I can, when there has been a decision to make, either with what to think, do or say, I have taken the road that I feel Guruji would agree with, it has worked well, if my mind is a garden, it appears to be lacking weeds.

I have noted though, that concepts, actions that I thought were me, are merely habit, once the focus is taken off them, they seem to wither and die, it is true what they say, “Sow a thought,...

My idiocy is getting us nowhere, although its tempting to 'be myself', the truth is it just does not feel comfortable anymore, as indeed does being an alpha male.

A week ago, I decided there was no option but compete surrender to the Hukam, I have had enough of attempting to find out who I am, why I do things, think things, say things, the truth of the matter is that I can be anyone I want to be, but the most comfortable I will ever be is the 'me' that was intended to be me. I have...

It has been a terrible awful week, not in terms of things that have taken place, but more my state of mind. I have tried my best to come up to the level required and failed miserably, I have just found out this morning that the reason I have failed miserably is the simple reason I tried my best, makes no sense? Well it didn't to me till about an hour ago either.

After Alfie died, I decided it was time to grow up, be a man, an adult, a bit like my brother, who is without doubt an...

Last night, Sian was undaunted, she wanted to spend the night on the floor with Alfie, so we put a mattress on the floor, duvet, pillows, and they cuddled up and went to sleep. This morning, she was of the opinion that he was suffering and it was time for him to go,. the vet was due round at 12.30, but I got a call at 11, Alfie was peacefully lying in the garden, on the grass, dead.

I rushed home, Alfie had been brought into the kitchen and was lying in state, wrapped in a blanket,...