Ok, the month from hell is over, the living within Hukam is going well, its almost like everytime I feel like doing something outside of Hukam, using the excuse, 'but thats who I am', I hear a second voice 'you don't have to be this, you can be anyone, you could even be yourself', so I find my definition of me changing rapidly, I used to think I had an addictive personality, now I find I just have no discipline, I thought I was a depressive, but in fact I can just be self indulgent, its amazing...
